1. Miseria Cantare (The Beginning)
Nothing, from nowhere, I'm no one at all. Radiate. Recognize one silent
call as we all form one dark flame. Incinerate. Love your hate, your faith lost. You are now one of us.
2. The Leaving Song Pt.
2
Don't waste your touch, you wont
feel anything. Or were you sent to save me? I've thought too much, you wont find anything worthy of redeeming. Yo he estado
aqui muchas veces antes y regreso to break down and cease all feeling, burn now what once was breathing. Reach out and you
may take my hear away. Imperfect cry and scream in ecstasy but what befalls the flawless? Look what I've built. It shines
so beautifully! Now watch as it destroys me. Y regreso aqui otra vez y comienzo to break down and cease all feeling, burn
now what once was breathing. Reach out and you may take my heart away. I left it all behind and never said good-bye. I left
it all to die. I saw its birth. I watched it grow. I felt it change me. I took the life. I ate it slow. Now it consumes me.
3. Bleed Black
I am exploring the inside.
I find it desolate. I do implore these confines now as they penetrate, "recreate me." I'm hovering throughout time. I crumble
in these days. I crumble, I cannot find reflection in these days. If you listen, listen close, beat-by-beat, you can hear
when the heart stops. I saved the pieces when it broke and ground them all to dust. I am destroyed by the inside. I disassociate.
I hope to destroy the outside. It will alleviate and elevate me. Like water flowing into lungs, I'm flowing through these
days. As morphine tears through deadened veins I'm numbing in these days. I know what died that night. It could never be brought
back to life once again, I know. I know I died that night and I'll never be brought back to life. Once again, I know. If you
listen, listen close, beat-by-beat, you can hear when the heart stops. I saved the pieces when it broke and ground them all
to dust.
4. Silver and Cold
I came here by day, but
I left here in darkness and found you on the way. Now, it is silver and silent. It is silver and cold. You, in somber resplendence,
I hold. Your sins into me, oh, my beautiful one now. Your sins into me. As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a prayer
and I'll beg for forgiveness. Your sins into me, oh, my beautiful one. Light, like the flutter of wings, feel your hollow
voice rushing into me as you're longing to sing. So I will paint you in silver. I will wrap you in cold. I will lift up your
voice as I sink. Cold in life's throws. I'll fall asleep for you. I only ask you turn away. I only ask you turn as they seep
into me, oh, my beautiful one.
5. Dancing Through Sunday
Will you join me in this
dance of misery, cradled in impossibility? Swooning, I am swept away, swept of my feet. With step-by-step we take the lead
as drop-by-drop we start to bleed. And we dance in misery, all lost in the arms of our misery. Swept off our feet by our misery,
we're swept into shadows. Will you lend yourself to beauty that will horrify? Let me hide within your black, the still inside
your eyes. Deafened, caught within a cry so sensual. As step-by-step I separate, while breath-by-breath I suffocate. So who
will follow? Who is the lead? I know I'll leave a stain because I bleed as we dance. We all dance. We all have no chance in
this horrid romance.
6. Girls Not Grey
I'll lay me down tonight
much further down, swim in the calm tonight. This art does drown. What follows me as the whitest lace of light just begs to
be imbrued? What follows will swallow whole. What follows has lead me to this place where I belong, with all erased. All insects
sing tonight, the coldest sound. I'd send god's grace tonight, could it be found. I'll lay me down tonight much further down...
watch stars go out tonight. On sinking ground I'll lay me down. What follows will swallow whole.
7. Death of Seasons
Of late it's harder just
to go outside, to leave this deadspace with hatred so alive. Writhing with sickness, thrown into banality, I decay. Killed
by the weakness, but forced to return. Turn it off. I watch the stars as they fall from the sky. I held a fallen star and
it wept for me, dying. I feel the fallen stars encircle me now, as they cry. Out there so quickly grows malignant tribes.
Posthuman extinction excels unrecognized. Feeling surrounded, so bored with mortality, I decay. All of this hatred is scuking
real. Turn it on. It won't be all right despite what they say. Just watch the stars tonight as they disappear, disintegrate.
And I disintegrate 'cause this hate is scuking real. And I hope to shade the world as stars go out and I disintegrate.
8. The Great Disappointment
I can remember a place I used to go. Chrysanthemums of white, they seemed
so beautiful. I can remember. I searched for the amaranth. I'd shut my eyes to see. Oh, how I smiled then, so near the cherished
ones. I knew they would appear...saw not a single one. Oh, how I smiled then, waiting so patiently. I'd make a wish and bleed.
While I waited I was wasted away. I can remember...dreamt them so vividly, soft creatures draped in white, light kisses gracing
me. I can remember when I first realized dreams were the only place to see them. While I waited I was wasting away. Hope was
wasting away. Faith was wasting away. I was wasting away. I never, never wanted this. I always wanted to believe, but from
the start I'd been deceived. I never, never wanted this. Inside a crumbling effigy, so dies all innocence. But you promised
me...
9. Paper Airplanes (Makeshift
Wings)
Raise high monolithic statues
so fragile. As they fall, I am ever enthralled. Gaze, lie and smirk in time. You arrogance will suit you well 'til fashion
is dispelled. As waves of plastic fame go out of fashion, you're going out forever unknown. These waves of plastic fame are
drying up and I smile because you're dying to become forever unknown. From above a rain of ashes descends. Anathema I will
remain, forever will remain. From below, in my seclusion, look up to the sky to see paper wings and watch them burn. Without
habitation. You'll never find a soul inside, no life, but nothing's died. No lights, but quite the show (just as long as no
one ever knows all motion is pantomime.) Dancing in the rain of descending ash, dancing on your grave, I'll see you all falling.
Dancing in the rain of descending ash, dancing in your dust. I'll see you all falling. I'd stop it, had you a heart.
10. This Celluloid Dream
Calling tears from deep
inside, oh, you're so exquisite. And in the mirror, all midnight eyes. Oh, if I could remain, but it's just a visit. All midnight
eyes read "vacancy." Twisted, twisting. To the lovely dancing lights, I begged, "May I cut in?" but they never stopped playing
"their song." Of a joyous song they sing, I've heard whispers. On a freezing note, I resonate. Just like romantic verses,
just like a joyous end, just like a memory, it twists me. You land as lightly as the new snow, cinematic, onto the melting
boy and melt away. You light as gently, you're so cinematic. Bathed in your radiance, I melt. In the glitter, in the dark,
sunk into velvet praying this will never end. In the shadow of a star, in static pallor, I realized I never began. All the
colors upon leaving will turn to grey.
11. The Leaving Song
Walked away, heard them say, "Poison hearts will never change. Walk
away again." Turned away in disgrace. Felt the chill upon my face cooling from within. It's hard to notice gleaming from the
sky when you're staring at the cracks. It's hard to notice what is passing by with eyes lowered. You walked away, heard them
say, "Poisoned hearts will never change. Walk away again." All the cracks will lead right to me and all the cracks will crawl
right through me, and I fell apart as I walked away, heard them say, "Poisoned hearts will never change." Walked away again.
Turned away in disgrace. Felt the chill opon my face cooling me from within.
12. ...But Home Is Nowhere
Twenty-six years and seems
like I've just begun to understand my intimate is no one. When the director sold the show, who bought its last rites? They
cut the cast, the music, and the lights. This is my line. This is eternal. How did I ever end up here? Discarnate. Preternatural.
My prayers to disappear, ungranted in dead time left me disowned, absent of grace, marked as infernal. To this nature, so
unnatural. I remain alone. Twenty-six years end. Still speaking in these tongues. Such revelations while understood by no
one. When the new actor stole the show, who questioned his grace? Please clear the house of ill-acquired taste. Give me something.
Give me something. Give me something real. I lay strewn across the floor, can't solve this puzzle. Everyday another small
piece can't be found. I lay strewn across the floor pieced up in sorrow. The pieces are lost, these pieces don't fit. Pieced
together incomplete and empty.
The Poems
We held hands on the last
night on earth. Our mouths filled with dust, we kissed in the fields under the trees, screaming like dogs, bleeding dark into
the leaves. It was empty on the edge of town but we knew everyone floated along the bottom of the river. So we walked through
the waste where the road curved into the sea and the shattered seasons lay, and the bitter smell of burning was on you like
a disease. In our cancer of passion you said, "Death is a midnight runner." The sky had come crashing down like the news of
an intimate suicide. We picked up the shards and formed them into shapes of stars that wore like an antique wedding dress.
The echoes of the past broke the hearts of the unborn as the ferris wheel silently slowed to a stop. The few insects skittered
away in hopes of a better pastime. I kissed you at the apex of the maelstrom and asked if you would accompany me in a quick
fall, but you made me realize that my ticket wasn't good for two. I rode alone. You said, "The cinders are falling like snow."
There is poetry in despair, and we sang with unrivaled beauty, bitter elegies of savagery and eloquence. Of blue and grey.
Strange, we ran down desperate streets and carved our names in the flesh of the city. The sun has stagnated somewhere beyond
the rim of the horizon and the darkness is a mystery of curves and lines. Still, we lay under the emptiness and drifted slowly
outward, and somewhere in the wilderness we found salvation scratched into the earth like a message.
This Time Imperfect
I cannot leave here, I cannot stay. Forever haunted, more than afraid.
Asphyxiate on words I would say. I'm drawn to a blackened sky as I turn blue. There are no flowers, no, not this time. There
will be no angels gracing the lines, just these stark words I find. I'd show a smile, but I'm too weak. I'd share with you,
could I only speak, just how much this hurts me. I cannot stay here. I cannot leave. Just like all I loved, I'm make-believe.
Imagined heart, I disappear. Seems no one will appear here and make me real. There are no flowers, no, not this time. There
will be no angels gracing the lines, just these stark words I find. I'd show a smile, but I'm too weak. I'd share with you,
could I only speak, just how much this hurts me. I'd tell you how it haunts me. Cuts through my day and sinks into my dreams.
You don't care that it haunts me. There are no flowers, no, not this time. There will be no angels gracing the lines, just
these stark words I find. I'd show a smile, but I'm too weak. I'd share with you, could I only speak, just how much this hurts
me...just how much this hurts me...just how much you...
The Art of Drowning
Initiation
There are no words.
The Lost Souls
If
you can't stand upon the water I will see you on the ocean floor. When you blink do you only find the misery between the lines?
Then take my hand and walk with me. Come to me, your sanctuary, I'll gladly accept the gift that I've been granted. If you
feel fine, then give it just a little time I'm sure you'll contract my disease. Look what you've done to me now, you've made
me perfect. If you can't stand upon the earth then I will meet you on the other side. When you blink do you only find the
misery weighs down your eyes? Then take my hand and sleep with me. Take my hand I'll be everything to you. Take my hand I'll
take everything from you. I will seep under your skin. I will. I will hold onto your heart. I will.
The Nephilim
Swing
through sadness, tears of joy. Curse the sunlight. Arsenic for the girls and boys. Drink the madness, smoke so coy. Smile
injection. Serum of a will destroyed. The seasons change without me. I remain in shadows growing wings. The spirit song still
surrounds me, in refrain, in shadows growing wings. Like an angel with two broken wings, reach the sky again. Like a devil,
meant for better things, I will find my place on high.
Ever and a Day
Lie in comfort of sweet calamity
with nothing left to lose. Like in the darkness, I'm slowly drowned to sleep nothing left to lose. Three tears I've saved
for you. I'd retrace the steps that lead me here but nothing lives behind me. So I lie in this field bathed in the light that
loves me, with nothing left to lose. Three tears I've saved for you. Will you be my beloved? Will you help me to get through?
Will you be my destruction? Will you help me to be through?
Sacrifice Theory
Hear one thousand screams.
Hear one thousand voices. A solitary echo. Feel one thousand pains, but one is receiving a bloody invitation. Do you want
to feel the warmth? To taste the life flow? Feel one thousand lost sinking into soft skin. Ingest rejuvenation. One to consume,
one to renew. Demanded invitation. I offer grace, I offer blood. I offer everything till my heart is crystal clear. Do you
want to feel the warmth? To taste the life? I want to taste the life to taste the life flow.
Of Greetings and Goodbyes
Now
ending discreetly, just like a hidden sin, as I go under please tuck me in. Make me invisible. This hidden explosion calls
for a wandering cast with no direction. Enter all monsters let us twist another fairy tale. Go kill the lights, we'll glow
till morning comes. I'll say goodnight and bow to everyone. Then we go under. The beauties are sleeping as fruit just rots
away. Today go hungry. Let it begin. Make me invincible. There was a weeping I carried down today, a sigh worth keeping. Deep
within divinity let's star another secret show. No need to worry it is just another monster. No need to fear here in the secret
show. No need to worry I am just another monster. In you, I'll see me, in the secret show.
Smile
Overwhelmed
with a deep repulsion for sights seen so commonly, now I have come to be the walking enmity. Assimilate into a culture of
post morality, from what I've seen, I hate humanity. Rot with repulsion. I'll write the world a brand new song. Look upon
your bleak creation, but is it truly me that's to be the human blasphemy? I'll set the world on fire and, in burning light
I'll write my first love song and I will feel warmth. Hide your eyes in heaven, in the lies. Believe. Relieve. I'll end the
world tonight. Overwhelmed with a deep repulsion for sights seen so commonly, now I have come to be a walking enmity, for
humanity, the human blasphemy, I'll end the world tonight.
A Story at Three
Again and again they blend
into one, my father the morning pushes through moonlight love. So what's sleep? Sleep. I'm tired, so tired, but it seems that
there's someone here with me. We are the wakeful, wry, watchful. We're awaiting. Deathless ones. A story at three with the
shrillest of cries. My mind fights with the sparkles in the corner of my eyes. I hear the morning choir sing to me their elegy.
So beautiful. They sing to me their elegy. Requiem.
The Days of the Phoenix
I remember when I was told
of story of crushed velvet, candle wax, and dried up flowers. The figure on the bed all dressed up in roses, calling.beckoning
to sleep offering a dream. The words were as mystical as purring animals. The circle of rage the ghosts on the stage appeared.
The time was so tangible I'll never let it go. Ghost stories handed down, reached secret tunnels below. No one could see me.
I fell into yesterday. Our dreams seemed not far away. I want to stay. I fell into fantasy. The girl on the wall always waited
for me and she was always smiling. The teenage death boys, the teenage death girls..and everyone was dancing. Nothing could
touch us then no one could change us then, and everyone was dancing. Nothing could hurt us then, no one could see us then,
and everyone was dancing. Everyone was dancing.
Catch a Hot One
Let's tap your heart so we can paint
the walls and see if anybody likes the tone or the pain. The hungry eyes waiting for life flash, now they're gonna see it.
Open your veins so we can make a pool and bathe and see if anyone complains of the stain. Let's strip you down so we can see
you old scars. Now you're gonna feel it. Show me how to shine now. Have you ever turned to dust? I saw an insect learn to
fly; its form was scorned. Have you ever seen the kingdom of the flys? I saw it stay in sovereignty. Have you lost the sense
of touch? Have you ever turned to dust? Let's lift you up so we can see how fast you fall. We always thought that you could
fly; now you'll crawl. The lack of loyalty you thought you once felt, now you're gonna feel it. Now show me how to shine.
Wester
I
can feel you waiting for me as the sun retreats to the hills and I, beneath the blanket of a burning sky, wrap myself within.
Embraced by dead leaves as the rain leaves trails of black down my face, I creep through the twilight to that hidden place
beyond the lonely. I'll meet you tonight in the whispers when no one's around. Nothing can stop us now. Tonight in the whispers
where we won't be found. I can feel you dreaming of me and the time when our steps are retraced and I creep through the twilight
to that hidden place, beyond the lonely, I'll meet you. Beneath a dream, lost in a dream tonight. Smile.
6 to 8
Six
figures enter; they've come to destroy the world. They've called together this storm almost every night. I awake in another
place. A familiar voice with a stranger's face speaks more unheard words. What new friends will the day bring? One for one
thousand acquainted. What new home will the night bring? When it all comes down you just throw the bones. On the way I saw
five hours of sleep but your fire makes it all worth while. On the way I wrote words for you to keep. On the way, I saw myself.
Lost myself along the way.
The Despair Factor
Along the path where the stream is talking, I breathe the
mist and continue walking. The wood it whispers in a language of it's own. As a sigh escaped my lips I feel the light caress
of fingertips that steal away the breath and leave me on my own, waiting by the stairs. Waiting, I despair. Do I hear the
hollow sound, footsteps resounding on this frozen ground, or the familiar disappointment of the echoes of my own? Somehow
I ended up here in between, where there is always the comfort of knowing I'll never be seen when I fall. I wait for just one
touch.and I fall. Weightless, Endless, Faithless, I'll adore you. A single touch before I fade. Painless let me pass through.
Morningstar
I saw a star beneath the stairs glowing through the melting walls. Who will be the first to begin their fall? Or will
we become one? Am I the star beneath the stairs? Am I a ghost upon the stage? Am I your anything? I saw a star beneath the
stairs glowing bright before descent and in the morning there is nothing left but what's inside of me. And I don't want to
die tonight; will you believe in me? And I don't want to fall into the light. Will you wish upon? Will you walk upon me? I
don't want to die tonight. Will you.
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Dream of Waking
I feel it washing over me, the slow poisonous tide.
Pins and needles dance on me. Sickness undefined. Now I'm afraid to face the sky. Please someone hear my haunted cries. Please
them waken me. With eyes sewn shut I still can see all that is surrounding me. I end up somewhere, somewhere between... between
a dream and motionless reality, will I forever life? I feel binding so smoothly. I see myself below. I feel it gnawing, eating
me. Poisonous and slow. My mind it speeds. My voice has died. God let me make the faintest cry. Opened up and for the taking,
just one touch and I'll be yours. Opened up wide for the breaking. Just one touch and I'll be yours. What's on the other side
of the mirror? To cry, I try, to break the static keeping me here in between.
All Hallow's EP
Fall Children
As the cries
start to penetrate still air, this day we celebrate. The wait now ends. From four corners smoke plumes into reddened sky.
In the face of lantern light, my destiny flies. This day so hallowed, from here to forever its will I will follow. Tonight
will come to life. Deadened branches stirred by whispers in the wind. Fall children fill the streets at dusk, at last, it
all will begin.
Halloween (Misfits Cover)
Bonfires burning bright, Pumpkin faces in the night, I
remember Halloween.
Dead cats hanging from poles, Little dead are out in droves, I remember Halloween.
Brown
leafed vertigo, Where skeletal life is known, I remember Halloween.
This day anything goes, Burning bodies
hanging from poles, I remember Halloween,
Halloween
Candy apples and razor blades, Little dead are soon
in graves, I remember Halloween.
This day anything goes, Burning bodies hanging from poles, I remember
Halloween
The Boy Who Destroyed the World
Once there was a boy who had vibrant glow, but as it goes, someone took
it from him. One day through the rain I heard him meekly moan, he said "Will you wrap your arms around me as I'm falling?"
Remember when we were all so beautiful? But since then we've lost our glow. They said it hurt their eyes but he would never
know that they were filled with regret as their own dissipated. He said, "I now feel more desperately alone, even though they
wrapped their arms around me as I'd fallen." They said it hurt their eyes, but he would never know that they were claiming
regret as their own... as their own dissipated.
Totalimmortal
Hope unkown. Sometimes just waking
is surreal. I walk right through the nameless ones. I know that hope's unknown. Sometimes the water feels so real. As I walk
through it fills my lungs, my god, I'm drowning. This day never seems to end. This pain, never. The rage I will not let go.
I hear them calling. I feel them gnawing out holes through flawless souls. So alone. Sometimes I swear that I can hear the
taunting of the voiceless ones. I fear that I alone fear those ceased to feel they're alone inside of this place. I
am the misplaced. Now every face, it looks familiar... then every face would melt away until.. now everyone, do you know,
I know your deception?
Black Sails In the Sunset
Strength Through Wounding
Through our bleeding. We are one! Through the darkness breaks
the light. Through the light unending pain. Deify the wretched ones till the darkness comes again.
Porphyria Cutanea
Tarda
I know... It's here we retreat, for where else could we go? To great disbelief there is somewhere we belong.
In negative space supposed flaws go unseen, but our strength is shown. In darkness together we're bringing the light. In darkness
together we are forming. The fire tomorrow is born of the night, in darkness together we ignite. From all we've been shunned
but we found a new home. To great discontent it is greatness that we own. In luminous eyes, reflections of fear absolute...
All hate what we've become. In darkness together we're bringing the light. In darkness together we are forming. The fire tomorrow
is born of the night, in darkness together we ignite. Through our will we bring fear. Left to burn beneath the sun. We are
one. When daylight forms blinding walls where do we go? Days arid are scorching all. When daylight forms blinding, binding
walls where do we go? The darkness calls.
Exsanguination
Welcome the whole new pain and take comfort
in what you've become. I waved as I passed myself along the way. I have arrived so unashamed but my reflection no longer seems
the same. It seems much dimmer now... it seems so dim. Just stumble and fall into a world that's over crowded. And you will
find me. Won't recognize me; and I won't recognize myself. I've arrived so unashamed, but all my senses no longer seem the
same. I can sense everything. My sight's so clear. In an instant,, my life just slipped away, I fought for life, the whole
time you were holding me down. You watched me dying. Holding me down, you brought my rebirth.
Malleus Maleficarum
Open
my eyes as I submerge and I won't deny what I've been since birth. I'll die drowned by your standards. Breathe in the life
of the summmer's death as the orange and red breathe their first breath, so welcome as they're burning through. We all begin
to burn. Autumn's flame dance's in my eyes Set alight for all we've learned. My ashes falling. My skin is singed but it heals
my heart and with glowing pride I'll wear my scars. I'm honored by your hatred. Leaves fall we arise again, and the end impending,
it will begin. So welcome as it's burning through. Ashes fall and I'm rising up again. Ashes fall. Ashes fall. Ashes fall
as we all arise.
Narrative Of Soul Against Soul
To the wounded: I have seen the self image they've
forced you to reduce to shattered glass, with the only remaining value lying in it's jagged edges. But the few who warrant
waking for await their recognition. No fear of death but with fear of life, your weakness kills everyone. So live. Angels
for everyone. For no lack of searching I can't seem to find one. Angels in everyone. What of all their promises? Can't seem
to find much more than lies. Angels in anyone. A permanent solution to a temporary problem. Before I'd lay me down to rest,
I'd throw away everything to live.
Clove Smoke Catharsis
Lean against the night and laugh as I try to
scale the walls. Ingnored futility fills the air. You're only there to watch me fall...If only pure sweetness was offered,
why's this bitter taste left in my mouth? If I could catch my breath just to exhale, I'd know that I held it in to long......
From above comes a faint smile, a new vantage such a view. Familiarity know disowned. Just sit and stare as I walk away.
The
Prayer Position
Now! Peel the skin back from the flesh. Steal the flesh back from the starving static minds. From
nature we must stray, to clarity we'll climb. Deadly impulse seems so natural, just look beyond it and we'll find a brand
new evolution. Here begins a brand new line. And in the distance there's a gathering, that no longer seems so far away. Pushed
to our knees so let us pray, and all together we'll bring the real rain. Watch all that's wasted wash away, so let it come.
Our will be done. Stature retrieved, regain our form. Break free from instinct that's left us all confined. From nature we
must stray to clarity we'll climb. Tradition ingrained, now impermissible. Now comes a call for all to find a brand new evolution.
Here begins a brand new line. I can't help but fear, look to my species and tremble, to think that God is just... And in the
distance there's a gathering that no longer seems so far away.
No Poetic Device
I've been dreaming.
I was lucid. I was dreaming blood was seeping from my pores. Who'd believe that it was all my own decision? Cracked faces
and medicated smiles. Set fire to my home before I turned and walked back in. For even needle open my chest and insert ten
pins. I just anticipate what awaits when I awake... break. I die in my daydreams. The gardens have all been overgrown. I pushed
my hand through the thorns to crush the final rose. A deadly secret only I suffer to know. I can't eradicate what awaits when
I awake... break. I die in my day dreams.
The Last Kiss
Hung in your room, swaying, hoping only that
you'll see. All by myself, I'm alone in such poor company. The deeper I think, the deeper I seem to sink, I can't stop the
insects that are feeding, pull the needles from beneath my skin. I broke myself, shattered, tied a bow around every peice.
You'll love the eyes. Have they always shown so vacantly? The more I show the less you'll want to know. I can't stop the insects
that are feeding, pull the needles from beneath my skin. Now I'm on display. I am becoming. Hurt myself today. It's all for
you. Do you like what I'm becoming? Cut myself today. It's all for you. I part the night, flashing, approaching as I watch
you flee. Pushed through your panes. Seems I've landed quite uncomfortably. But as I pass through souls of broken glass I
can't stop the insects that are feeding. Pull the needles from beneath my skin. Please don't ask me what I think, trust me,
you don't want to know. Please don't ask me to open up, trust me, trust me, 'cause I can't.
Weathered Tome
They're
coming 'round again. I've returned and they've been waiting. Their aged offererings received and returned, passed through
wet eyes. I tremble as I feel them rolling in for, my sins, the old ghosts know. So chilling as I feel them mourn within my
soul. As the mourning grows. Unfold before me. Turn back the page again. Twenty four hours spent wishing that the day was
never ending. Shadows of glory shading my heart again. Recall the summer when I left my heart to cool beneath the shadows
I'm coming 'round again. I've returned and no one's waiting. I strain my eyes to see but it's so hard to read the old tags
on the fallen walls.
At A Glance
No haven now as I watch it pour from everywhere. Just like the storm
that has come out of thin air. Gentle caresses, just as paper thin -frail and only- lack the strength to hold. What if could
go to sleep for days, would you count the hours, or would your restlessness consume fading memories of me? Fall into open
arms that offer their protection. Quick to deny that their open to deceit. Long to believe that support will never cease.
Bitter and lonely, those they've left before. The vibrant heart so quickly growing old, the warmest eyes so quickly growing
cold. Just a glance for they don't care to see what becomes of me.
God Called In Sick Today
Let's admire
the pattern forming. Murderous filigree. I'm caught in the twisting of the vine. Go ascend with ivy, climbing. Ignore and
leave for me the headstone crumbling behind. I can't help my laughter as she cries. My soul brings tears to angelic eyes.
Let's amend the classic story, close it so beautifully, I'll let animosity unwind. Steal away the darkened pages, hidden so
shamefully. I'll still feel the violence of the lines. I can't stand my laughter as they cry. My soul brings tears to angelic
eyes. And miles away my mother cries. Omnipotence, nurturing malevolence.
Midnight Sun
What went down
on the side of the road? What I saw at the edge of the see. Only those elements time cannot wear, and they follow. What
seeped out throught the cracks in time, what sucks out the color in me? What awaits beyond infinity? Beyond and to all time
I stand. What blew in with the great gale? What weighed down the falling leaves? What came forth from the remains? What
has always lived and gone unseen? What has caused the night to fall? Who speaks of eternity? Who awakes to night eternally?
DE
PROFUNDIS CLAMAVI (Baudelaire) O my sole love, I pray thee pity me From out this dark gulf where my poor heart lies, A
baren world hemmed in by leaden skies Where horror flies at night, and blasphemy.
For half the year the sickly sun
is seen, The other half thick night lies on the land, A country bleaker than the polar strand; No beasts, no brooks,
nor any shred of green.
There never was a horror which surpassed This icy sun's cold cruelty, and this vast Night
like primeval Chaos; would I were
Like the dumb brutes, who in a secret lair Lie wrapt in stupid slumber for a space... Time
creeps at so burdensome a pace.
** Vinyl Version
Only **
Lower It
An invitation. Excluding
no one. So walk right in and destroy the fucking place. You've lost your right to be part of my family. The family that welcomed
you. You joined and left in disgrace Your flag was flaming. Before it ever started flying. Your flag was burning Burning down
everyone in true salute. Sense of commitment. A sense of pride. I heard you say that we shared a destiny. Now it's plain to
see you've got no sense at all. The name that once honored. You disgraced and made a mockery I could always see. The smoke
from miles away. I could always see. The weakness in your eyes. Far away I feel the lies. While the sky is burning. You will
always be unwanted.
A Fire Inside EP
3 1/2
Open wounds in the palms
of my hands, festering through infectious time. I feel so faint as my life spills over you. Backstep over glass as I repent.
I fear I cannot prevent myself from spilling your life all over me. I'm so sick, so sick of myself. Mother, say you'll pray
for me. I'm premature in my decay. Shards of glass swimming in my eyes. A small voice in the back of my mind that's whispering
words I never want to hear. I pray that you won't hesitate, as you watch me degenerate, to reach in my wounds and extract
all of my fear. My suffocation, asphyxiation. I've been choking on my own blood.
Over Exposure
I have
seen ten roses bleed, seen new petals fall, I have felt my soul tear. I have felt nothing at all. Watched what was vibrant
fade as shadows fall. I can see it's been done, all that was pure had been eradicated. I can see it's all done. Nothing can
erase the damage done. I have seen ten liars love, seen two lovers lie, seen youth, blinded, smiling. I have seen deciet handed
down from the highest height, below the lowly. I have seen beasts bathed in glory, tread across the angels as they crawl.
Take it all away. Regress to nothing. Can someone please take these images from my mind?
The Hanging Garden
(Cure cover)
Creatures kissing in the rain. Shapeless in the dark again. In the hanging garden please don't speak.
In the hanging garden no one sleeps. Catching haloes on the moon. Gives my hands the shapes of angels. In the heat of the
night the animals scream. In the heat of night walking into a dream... Fall fall fall fall into the walls. Jump jump out of
time. Fall fall fall fall out of the sky. Cover my face as the animals die. Creatures kissing in the rain. Shapeless in the
dark again. In a hanging garden change the past. In a hanging garden wearing furs and masks. Fall fall fall fall into the
walls. Jump jump out of time. Fall fall fall fall out of the sky. Cover my face as the animals die. In the hanging garden.
Demonomania (Misfits cover)
Look upon me I am the beast. Demonomania. My father was a wolf. Demonomania. My mother
was a whore. You check and see. Reality of the wolf. It's in the blood. I wanna be the fucking savior. Humans are weak. What
else you fucking do. Humans are weak. I want your blood. Demonomania. My father was a wolf. Demonomania. My mother was a whore.
Demonomania. My mother was a whore. Demonomania. My father was a wolf.
Shut Your Mouth and Open Your Eyes
Keeping Out Of Direct
Sunlight (An Introduction)
We are the ones
with the radiating eyes. We are the ones who have a fire inside. We are the ones only we can recognize. We've been rejected
- suffered the ignorance, suffered the selfishness, been pushed so far down now comes Our time to surface. Turn from the light,
that made them all go blind. We've been protected. ALL ARISE TO WHAT WE BRING, OUTSTRETCHED HANDS, UNFOLDED WINGS. We've hurt
ourselves, and I feel the sting of broken hearts and burning wings...
Three
Reasons
Where were you? Say you were gone? Well, ask me and I'll swear you were there all along. Another place?
Another state? At any rate, I can't relate. There's no two ways, you're a disgrace. Drown down your fear, suffocate every
spark of clarity. Your weakness: sickens me, saddens me, strengthens me. There's no way to free responsibility. Who's
to blame? Who's in the wrong? The truth from which you hide - it was you all along. You were there, you didn't care, and your
heart and mind were self impaired. Now, all that's left is our despair.
A Single Second
Oh my God!
My God this can't be happening! God tell me, tell me this isn't real! i can't believe all that i have foreseen is finally
happening. i cannot for a single second stand the way i feel. i always knew. i always saw it coming. Enveloped now, encased
by my worst fear. i've never felt the nausea of longing to feel nothing, i never wanted to cease to exist, just disappear.
Fear memories are all that lie ahead. Never have I felt so lost. Memories dull my senses. Fear tragedy is all that lies
ahead. Never have I felt so dead. Once felt so warm, no i'm fucking freezing. i am the once embraced abandoned one. i
raised my eyes up to the light in hopes of finding healing; no relief was mine, i was burnt, by the sun.
pH Low
So quickly draining away. If you could only hear all the things you used to say. Consumed now by what you knew
was poisonous, quenching your thirst for life. Will you die for me? Will you live for me? Kill aspirations away. Embrace a
dream that was a nightmare only yesterday. True friends forgotten and all hopes been traded in, exchanged for what. For what?
All at once, all is lost. All is lost.
Let It Be Broke
I live in truth, complacently. Where's the threat
you see in me? Am I the cause of your Self consciousness? You scream at me 'cause I can't ignore the destructiveness that
you support, 'cause my life's contrary to yours. No soft words from my mouth. A glazed look in your eyes. I live in the world
of reality, you comfort yourself with lies. I will release myself, I will detach myself from you. I will detach myself from
you kind. I've seen your life but I can't see how it is that you can be so content in your own ignorance. Its been so dark
for so long now a new light has come along, illuminating all, so shut your eyes. I won't tell you what you want to hear, I
will show you what's real. I will, will defy.
Third Season
Can you feel the pulse? Can you feel the
heat rising from below? Can you feel the energy gaining strength, oh so slowly? But I'll wait...I'll wait...till the seasons
change. I'll wait...I'll wait... till the fall comes. And I'll give you a mirthless laugh. Can you see the signs? Can you
see the changing of the winds? Can you see the stillness in the air? Calm will remain...oh so shortly. But I'll wait...till
the seasons change. I'll wait...till the fall comes.
Lower Your Head and Take It in The Body
Drowned
in flames is where I can be found, my nose broke from being smashed into the ground. What a waste, this place I call my home.
Escape this place and break out on my own! I'm still reaching. Try to slap me down, but I'll still hold. In the fray is where
I can be found. My head is bruised from always being knocked around. What a fight, this life I call my own! Escape this life,
and break out on my own! I'm still reaching! Try to slap me down, but I'll still hold. I'll hold my own.
Coin Return
I have slipped and I have fallen so far down I can't get out. Overwhelmed by my doubt. Things I said I'd never
do I've done. Those I said I'd never be I've become. I have broken - I'm still breaking - cracked and wrecked, beyond repair.
Smacks me in the face every time I fall. I cannot disregard, with each new fall I hit twice as hard. Would you be there for
me? I would. Would you look up to see? I would. falling forward and looking up.
The New Patrons Saints and Angels
I've
seen the light that emanates from you, and it makes me feel proud, a voice of reason above the muffling crowds. Such will
to live and you've got so much to give, long lost sincerity. Lost in a world that's been scorched to black. Lost in myself
until I finally find. A guide in you, and gratitude is mine, I admire the way you shine. Stare down the day from which others
shield their eyes, with complete clarity, and no trace of apathy. So positive, and your heart you freely give, long lost vivacity.
Lost in a world that's been scorched to black. Lost in myself until I finally find. A guide in you, and gratitude is mine,
I admire the way you shine.
Three Seconds Notice
Submission- My back hurts from bowing down. Attraction
- Was once so strong now can't be found. Affection - One gift I wish you would return. Frustration - as I accede. I do not
deserve your frigidness, such callousness, yet I persist. What's wrong with me? I told you "you can't be replaced", you showed
me I'm disposable. Spit in my face, as I submit, so I quit!
Salt For Your Wounds
There's a tear in
my heart where the blood ran out. There's a tear in my heart where the love ran out. I thought we worked, pushed toward the
same ends, I'll never be so quick to trust again. Disenchanted, disgusted, I regret that I trusted. I put my faith. My faith
in you, you poisoned me through and through. I though we both shared the same injuries. Now I've found it's you who injures
me. My heart is cracked from being left out in the cold. I know you'll pay for what you've taken - tenfold. Disenchanted,
disgusted, I regret that I trusted. I put my faith. My faith in them, they twisted the knife further in.
Today's
Lesson
Here is your lesson for today, ya better listen up real fucking good! My cloud always has a silver lining,
and I love everything that I see. My world is wonderful and no one could ever hurt me. You hate yourself, yes you do, and
that's why right now I hate you. You hate yourself, yes you do, and that's why right now I can't stand you. Have you learned
your lifes lesson yet? No? Well let me tell you something. I am your teacher you have a lot to learn from me you must love
yourself. You are my teacher you teach me about my life. Theres a lot I can learn from you. And that's why right now I love
you... So fuck you!
The Devil Loves You
Do you understand what I'm trying to say? Have you ever felt?
Have you ever felt this way? Tainted with rage you can't drain away or it will cost you your life. I couldn't care more. Do
you ever absorb what shouldn't be touched? Have you ever cared? Ever cared this much? Do you think it is I who is out of touch,
or are you too scared to think at all? I couldn't€ care more. As your friends fall does it tear your heart? Do tears
fill your eyes as your world falls apart? Do you notice at all, or are you sailing sublime? Am I completely alone?
Triple
Zero
It burns! It burns! It burns my eyes and throat, but I need no antidote. Gnawing and tearing at my insides
- seething, keeping me alive - hatred poisons me through and through - a sustenance - keeping me true. It's not too late.
It's never gonna be too late. Embrace your hate. The pain! The pain it crushes me. I gain animosity. Acid sweat and bloody
tears, through it all I preserve. Some sedate through indifference but I withheld zero tolerance.
* Vinyl Version
Only *
Last Caress
I've got something to say, I killed your baby today and it doesn't matter much
to me as long as its dead. I've got something to say, I raped your mother today and it doesn't matter much to me as long as
she's spread. Sweet lovely death, I've been waiting for your breath. Let me take one last caress. I've got something to say,
I killed your baby today and it doesn't matter much to me as long as it's dead. Sweet lovely death, I've been waiting for
your breath. Let me take one last caress.
Very Proud of Ya
He Who Laughs Last...
No trust can be given freely, its' a valuable commodity, but obviously
this is something you've never learned. Faith is something that you put in friends, and had I excess morals to lend, I'd let
you borrow them, but my trust you haven't earned. We've got a problem? First of all there is no "we", I'm detached from you
completely. I've got a problem. You tell lies to my friends and think it won't get back to me. No bond can ever seem to make
a stable fit in our relationship, but one thing that never comes between us is honesty. When you have something to say, you
always seem to find a way to avoid the truth or instead, avoid me. Straight up is how you'll see me stand, but it is never
in your plans to be straight forward, so instead, you use deceit. Now I would like to take apart what you've been breaking
from the start. I'll remain intact, I won't be broken in defeat. No trust!
File 13
I sleep until there
is no light. I'm wide awake all through the night. Diner may suck but I'll take a bite, I do whatever I can. My muscles stiffen
through the day. Discomfort never goes away. I feel like a garbage can. Throw me away, I've got no use. Throw me away, I'm
nothing to lose. Throw me away, I feel like shit. I am useless. I know I know nothing at all. I'd take stand, but I know I'd
fall. I'd run head-down into a wall and watch my blood run faster. Girls laugh and pass me on the street. I spook out everyone
I meet. I've got pink toenails on my feet, I'm such a fucking master. I never seem to feel well. I always seem to look like
hell. It seems like everyone can tell my mind is going numb. My mom thinks I wear women's clothes. I get dogged on at all
the shows. It seems that everybody know I look like a fucking bum
Wake Up Call
If I had my way I'd
wish them all away, but I can't find the magic inside of me. I'll give my best, 'cause I can give no more, but your problems
aren't solved so easily. I'm not someone that you should run to. I've been, often, as broken as you, more often than you'd
like me to. If I could heal all the pain that you feel, I'd gladly cure all that ails you inside. Unfortunately, I have no
degree and I can not anesthetize. I wish that I could help you. I can't even help myself. It seems you need a saving grace
and a savior's something I'm not.
Cult Status
I'll turn you on and switch you right off. I'll make sure
you like what you see. Forget all that you once believed. Now you will believe in me. Do you believe you make the choice,
decide what you hold most dear? In all opinions that you voice, it's my voice that they all hear. I'll take you ideas and
your values, I'll make you turn them all around. I'll break your individuality, I'll take you down. I'll seal shut your open
eyes. I'll give you a taste on the bland. Intoxicate you, take me in. You'll never feel the touch of my hand. I'll turn you
on and switch you right off. I'll soothe your troubled mind. You'll never have to think again, it's just a matter of lost
time.
Perfect Fit
What was it I was thinking, or was I even thinking at all? When I think of what I
thought back then, then I'm ashamed; and I'm appalled that I gave up all I was so easily. Living your life is not for me.
I won't be sedated, I won't be sedated! Give me a little taste and I know I won't want more. I won't be sedated, stability
is overrated. Give me the disorder I adore. I can't be a part, be a part, I can't be a part. I can't be a part, be a part
of your modern world. I've gotta be apart, be apart, I've gotta be apart. I've gotta be apart. I can't grasp the values that
you hold. What was it you were thinking, or were you even thinking at all? When I think of what you thought of me, I take
offense; and I'm appalled that you could discount all I love so easily. Living our life is not for me.
Advances
In Modern Technology
Every night I walk the streets, awake while everyone else sleeps. I'm giving unease to anyone
I meet. My generosity can never runout, because I give a gift from what's within myself. No hope at all. Take nothing from
nothing and you'll have nothing left. I can't recall. I can't recall a moment in my life when life was at it's best. Everyone
avoids my stare and no one cares to ever dare to look into my eyes of what they most fear. And they're taught to fear, to
fear no evil. And they know no fear, they've learned to love themselves. Forever unlucky, 'cause I'll own tomorrow. Forever
unwanted, outcast today. I'm not misled, I've got no one to follow. Everywhere to go, no place to stay.
Theory
Of Revolution
Don't want to think about it, but I see it every day. Corrupted innocence just doesn't seem to fade
away. Spoiled so young, you know it's bound to last, but when you're living in the city, you've gotta grow up fast. And it
makes me sick, God, it makes me sick. Don't want to think about it, but I see it every day. If you want to buy affluence,
your soul you'll have to pay. Wasting away the prime of your life, but it's been done that way for years, so you know it must
be all right. Don't wanna think about it, but I see it every day. With every sip and every shot, mind and bodies fade away.
Friends are all gone, and memories don't last, but when you've fallen off the wagon, you seem to fall so damn fast.
This
Secret Ninja
Just like cellophane, you try to cling so tight to me, but your attempt's in vain. You've less sincerity
than the plastic. Paper in rain. The print appears so bright to me. The words remain. I hold it to the light, I see right
through. So eager to say, "hello", but you don't know me. You just know what you see. Pay the price to see the show but you
don't own me. Before you knew would you have felt the same? Just when I'm inspired, you drain the drive right outta me, and
even when I'm tired you push me to perform for you amusement. Just like raging fire, you burn what's left inside of me and
to fulfill your desire, I'd give you light till I burned out. Just when you start to smile, I look into your eyes and see
your veiled denial to express any real emotion. Just wait around a while, you'll lose what you once had for me. I'll be out
of style, I'll be discarded with the warmth you once feigned.
Soap Box Derby
I'm not angry, I'm just
amused at your quest for attention through your self abuse. The only response that you get for your pleasis sorely less than
sympathy. What reason is there to be alive? When the word is against you how can you survive? All your friends are apathetic
at best, and your entire life is a total mess. Give it a fuckin' rest. You can't feel me, feel, I'm scarred so deep. No one
needs me. Could you please leave me alone? I'm sorry to hear that your world's sinking fast and you've lost your stable ground
and I'm sorry to add to your disappointment, but I won't be brought down. I'm not angry, I'm just amused at all the dramatics
you love to use, but one thing I have noticed that is strange to me is that you're not content until you're brought down,
and you're always so alone because you can't be found. You're soul is black and you're filled with hate. How much more can
you possible take? Give me a fuckin' break.
Aspirin Free
There's no hope of helping us, we've only just
begun. We're youth eternal, nothing more to become. A thousand lights are burning from both ends. We're proud of reputations
we all own. Together forever. Rejected but never alone. Together forever. I'd purify the world with one primal scream, but
no one would listen. Keep dark secrets to myself, because no one else will talk to me. It's hard for me to comprehend, they
couldn't understand all the thoughts going through our heads. With a smile they tore us up, now look what we've become. Finally
we are numb. No need to. No need to feel. I've got a nothingness and that's all that's real. No need to cut the numbness inside.
No need to. No need to hear. What you've got to say means nothing at all. I've got no distance left to fall.
Fishbowl
I'm
here today, just like every yesterday. Heavy heat, and sheets stick to my skin. Can't get away from nothingness. I try to
get up, but I have to give in to the force that is keeping me down. I overcome gravity, I look outside. A cat cries out, trapped
upon a window sill, but is crying's drowned out by my screaming inside. What will it take? I wonder what it's like exposed
outside, would I be safe? When will it break. Try to look out, I see reflection I just want to break. Sirens moan. They're
forever crying...someone's probably dying. The sound sticks inside my head. Talk to myself, I'm company, but who is to say
if nothing if said? Two windows stare back at me. Three stories high nothing is new. I may sit, but someday I'll stand. I'll
muster up the will and fire myself through.
Charles Atlas
You've seen it all a thousand times, you've
heard it all before. You've danced the steps, you wrote the rhymes. So passé, too many times, but you're hollow at the core.
Two generations past you by. You think there's nothing left. But look around and you will see what our world has grown to
be. We are the now, not the past. Can't you even try to see the strength with which we've built ourselves to be. I know that
you will never be able to destroy what it's meant to me. You've never seen the likes of us. We are your novelty. A brand new
trend with mass appeal, don't like the truth, don't like what's real. You're jumping into something you'll never understand.
You think that it's a passing phase. It's our entire life. You revel in rebellious ways, rebellion that the media made. When
you change your channel, we'll smash your T.V.
Crop Tub
You say you want to be friends, start over,
try again? Well, things will never be the way they were back then. Things were never how you wanted, I couldn't think of you
that way. Now, if you take one step closer I will take two steps away. Maybe you need affection, I'd like to help you but
I can't stand when you're around: fuck you very much. Maybe you need to talk, but you betrayed my trust. Friends was not good
enough? Fuck You Very Much. You can always claim you're straightedge, go ahead and dye your hair. You won't get more attention
from me, 'cause I will never fucking care. I try to remain secret, shooting away and hiding out, but you always track me down.
Open your eyes and figure it out. I'm not trying again. I'm sick of seeing you. Don't wanna be your friend. I wish you'd go
away.
Consult My Lover
You've got something to say, or so you say to me, then you receive a blank stare.
You've got something to say of importance and gosh, that's really good to hear. I'm proud of you, so proud of you, I'm proud
of you, I'm very proud of you. You've got something S.P. - some to show to me. Well, I have seen it before. I can't compete,
I can't impress you. I guess I'll show you the door.
Take The Test
When it comes the time that you have
recognized your line and you realize the path that you will travel through your life, be sure that what you want is exactly
what you're trying to get, or you'll be speeding toward a cliff without realizing that... Before you know, the haze makes
you slow ignore your future, forget your past - before you know, cars start to crash. There are so many choices, the opportunities
abound. Just to be sure to keep things straight and be sure to stand your ground. Let nothing shade your vision, even fight
to keep it clear. Let no one change what's right for you, for when you start to veer cars start to crash.
Two Of
A Kind
Hanging out and lingering around, 'cause you know where I'll be found and I don't know how you do it. This
obsession I must admit has shaken me up a bit. My solidarity now only comes pairs. I'd like to see you before you see me.
I'd like to see you. I'd like to see you leave. Showered be torrential praise, why it is I can't explain. Attempts to leave
yield no avail. For me I don't know what's in store. All I want is nothing more. I don't deserve what I get, I've nothing
to return.
Shatty Fatmas
Don't care to hear what you heard. I won't believe a single word. Don't care
to hear what you say. I won't believe it anyway. You relay fiction, facts you avoid. You're just like a fucking tabloid, you
can never seem to get your information straight. Tell me something I don't know. Your information's fucking faux. Don't you
have somewhere to go? Your mouth is quick, your mind is slow. Don't want to know what you know. I just want you to fucking
go. Don't want to know what you believe. I just wish that you would leave. You try to cajz everyday, I wish that you would
get away. You can never seem to get your information straight. When you try to hang around, I'd really like to push you down.
When you try to understand, I don't really think that you can.
Yurf Rendenmein
You keep on sayin' that
you want to know me but you never show me your true self. How can you ever expect someone else to know you when all you're
going to do is just pretend that you're someone else? You keep on sayin' that you want to show me that you're really different,
but your just the same. If you're really mindless then there is no way that I can win, maybe you're just one of them, or maybe
it's just a game. You lie to yourself and remain alone. I'm not exactly sure of your motivation. I'm not exactly sure what
you're tryin' to do. All I'm really sure is that you're not too impressive and you're wearin' a mask that I can't see through.
Maybe you're not looking for acceptance, maybe you're striving for something more. If it's status that you lust then why try
to be one of us? You're someone we'll never trust 'cause we know the score.
Cruise Control
I will never
want to date you while I can learn to hate you. If you somehow learn to love me, well, that's just my luck. I would never
care if you only wanted my friendship, but somehow you're disappointed that I'm not a slut. I don't want to fuck you, so fuck
you. I my mind there is no doubt that you've been in and out of many different backseats, many times before. I can always
see your defeat when I won't leave the front seat. And it seems your disappointed that I'm not a whore.
Modern
Epic
Yeah I can see it coming. I've seen it all before. I've seen it once or twice and now I hear it call to board.
This train is moving fast but how long is it gonna last. I guess that we'll find out as well go in through the out door. Don't
ever let go. Is this the start? Is this the end? New faces ask, "what's happening?" I bite my tongue and hold my breath and
tell them, "the same old thing." I don't know what's going, on but I don't wanna do it wrong. Don't wanna contradict myself
with all the words I sing.
** VINYL VERSION ONLY **
Who Said You Could Touch Me?
Who
said you could touch me? You don't know I am so, you can not get close to me and I don't know who you are, so just leave me
alone. I know you can't believe the anxiety you're causing me adn I know you can't believe your fake compassion I don't need.
Get away from me, You're standing too close. Keep your hands off of me. Keep away from me, Just leave me alone, who said you
could touch me anyway? Don't try to rub my shoulders and don't try to hold my hand. Don't try to give me a fucking hug. You
crawl.
Rolling Balls
Bowling is my life and it has always been my dream to be a member of the local bowling
team, but I'm not very good. The guys won't accept me, I guess I try the girls team and lose a part of my anatomy then balls
will roll. I think I want to be... Balls will roll, I think it's time, it's timefor me to be a girl. It's a very big decision,
it's going to change my life. I'll have to make all new friends, I 'm gonna lose my wife. But that's okay with me. There's
something in my soul. It doesn't matter who's the better man, it the man who gets to bowl. I 've made my decision , I'm gonna
make the change. There will be rolling balls, I'm gonna play my game. It's gonna be so great. It's gonna be the best, besides,
I've always told myself I look good in a dress. I'm gonna cut'em off, I'm gonna cut'em off, I'm gonna cut'em off. I'll never
have to cough. Now I've made my change and I've fulfilled my dream. I'm now a member of the women's bowling team. I hope I
throw a strike, 'cause I'll never score again. My first game is tomorrow, I will go to play and then....
Love Is
A Many Splendored Thing
You think you've got the looks, you think you've got the fashion. You thought you'd have
me wanting more, but don't like my reaction. You think you're really something. You're nothing to me now. You thought you'd
keep me coming without ever thinking how. I hate you. You think you're really special. You think I think you're best. You
think you're really something? You're no better than the rest. You've got everything you wanted. Don't let yourself be fooled.
You thought that you could play the game, but I just changed the rules.
Answer That and Stay Fashionable
Two Of A Kind
Hangin' out and
lingerin' around, 'cause you know where I'll be found and I don't know how you do it. This obsession I must admit has shaken
me up a bit. My solidarity now only comes in pairs. I'd like to see you before you see me. I'd like to see you. I'd like to
see you leave. Showered by torrential praise, why it is I can't explain. Attempts to leave yield no avail. For me I don't
know what's in store. All I want is nothing more. I don't deserve what I get, I have nothing to return.
Half Empty
Bottle
The ends don't always justify the means, but I know what it takes to get what I need. I've got the cure
when passive protest just wont do. Just flick my Bic as I hold it to the fuse. Smash it up. Break it down. Bring it down,
down to the ground. Tear it up. Burn it down. Burn it down, down to the ground. How long have we waited for the day when they
tighten their grips and we slip away? The sound of breaking glass drives me back up. It makes me whole when I've been down
on my luck.
Yurf Rendenmein
You keep on sayin' that you want to know me but you never show me your true
self. How can you ever expect someone else to know you when all you're going to do is just pretend that you're someone else?
You keep on sayin' that you want to show me that you're really different, but your just the same. If you're really mindless
then there is no way that I can win, maybe you're just one of them, or maybe it's just a game. You lie to yourself and remain
alone. I'm not exactly sure of your motivation. I'm not exactly sure what you're tryin' to do. All I'm really sure is that
you're not too impressive and you're wearin' a mask that I can't see through. Maybe you're not looking for acceptance, maybe
you're striving for something more. If it's status that you lust then why try to be one of us? You're someone we'll never
trust 'cause we know the score.
I Wanna Mohawk (But Mom Won't Let Me Get One)
I may be ten years old
but I still know what's up. I wear my Cramps shirt almost every single day. I want to sag my pants. I want to pogo dance,
but mom won't let me so I might just run away. I wanna ride my skate. I wanna stay out late. I want a mohawk but mom won't
let me get one. I wanna go to shows. Don't wanna pierce my nose. I want a mohawk but mom won't let me get one. I may be in
fourth grade, but I know what's going on. I listen to the Misfits almost every single day. Don't want to take a nap. I want
a TV tat, but mom won't let me so I might just disobey.
Brownie Bottom Sundae
Into the dark is where
you're draggin' me and into your dark is where I never want to be. I know I'm not alone and I really want to leave. Into the
dark is where you want to watch me bleed. I'm feelin' kinda trapped, I gotta go. I'm feelin' kinda trapped don't you know.
I'm feelin' kinda trapped I gotta go. I gotta go. I'm being dragged down, for how long, I don't know. I'm being dragged down
and I rise up way too slow. I know I don't belong here and I think I ought to go. I hope that I can leave here, leave here
with my soul.
The Checkered Demon
Too much to find, so much so little time. So many images persist to
shade my mind. Will I ever come around or will I just hit the ground? Will I still be standing when it all comes down? Why
can't I seem to sort it out? Why am I always filled with doubt? So many people everywhere, so self absorbed without a care.
Of their viral lives, I'd like to bleed them all. When all is drained, who shall hold? When mindless bodies screw tortured
souls, will somebody be there to catch me when I fall? Why can't I seem to sort it out. Why am I always filled with doubt.
How could I always be so blind? Why can't I figure it out. I could always hope for change, could always hope to rearrange.
But why not just abandon hope and tear it all apart now?
Cereal Wars
Get up early in the morning, going
to the store. Post, Kellogs, General Mills? It's the cereal war. Fuckin' store never has the monsters and they never get more.
Post, Kellogs, General Mills? It's the cereal war. I hope sexual chocolate is in stock, it's got a condom in the box. I'll
try some cocoa puffs today. What the fuck is Sonny anyway? Some say Dino's are the best, they've got more marshmallows than
the rest. There's not a lot of cocoa in cocoa crispies, and always stay away from wheaties. Now it's dinner time and I'm going
back to the store. I had some Erkles, 'liked 'em a lot. It's the cereal war. I wish I were Calvin or Hobbes and then I could
try sugar bombs. The soggies will never get Cap'n Crunch, I guess I'll have Crunch Berries for lunch. Breakfast cereals need
to be sweet, that's the only kind I'll eat. Give me sugar not nuts and twigs! Do I look like a fuckin' squirrel to you?
The
Mother In Me
Caught in a world that's plagued by something they called love. A paradigm of illness is the beast
I have become. The sights that I have seen could nearly bring me to my knees. I've seen exactly what it is I never want to
be, but I keep it deep inside myself. It's within me. Keep it deep within yourself and sink with me. Last night I had the
misfortune to see it all first hand. "Evacuate the premises" was the innate first command. What drives the need for all of
this? And will I ever understand? Has someone failed to tell me of this master plan? But I keep it deep inside myself. It's
within me. Keep it deep within yourself and sink with me.
Rizzo In The Box
I'm always around you to
show that I care but I don't know what for. It seems to me that you couldn't care less so I'm not going to do it anymore.
I see no reason why I've placed such a value on you, but my thoughts have changed now, I've opened my eyes and now I'm through.
Lookin' back at my short life, the few pleasures that I've found, all your misconceptions pummel me into the ground. Now,
I look at your small life and it doesn't mean a bit. I pick myself up off the ground 'cause I don't give a shit. They say
all good things come to an end, I wish this didn't apply. You were once someone I called my friend but that's all now changed
and I don't know why. Things are very different now. You've got nothing to say. It' s sad when someone you know very well
decides to fuckin' die and go away.
Kung-Fu Devil
It's said and done, there is no turning back. I've
made my choice, now I've gotta face the facts. Within myself, the hunger won't be subdued, because I can't have my cake and
eat it to. I'm worn down from fighting with myself. I'll save my life and lose my mental health. I'm wiggin' out, everything
is turnin' round. A bitter taste - no comfort can be found. An emptiness wells inside of me, there's no filling the void that
will always be. A self control is all I have to hold. It's been too long. Maybe I have been to bold? When you're bound by
your own conviction a discipline can be your addiction. I'm warn down from fighting with myself. I'll save my life and lose
my mental health. I've gone this far so I'll keep tryin'. Continue to fight, hope that I don't end up dying.
Your
Name Here
It's the same old situation, it seems it's coming 'round again. I wont play the fool, I'm not screwin'
around. I only play to win. I only want what I deserve so who are you tryin' to kid? You can call it like you see it but I
call it like it is. I'm sick of shruggin' off your petty little ways. The names are always changing, in the end it's just
a game. We're runnin' in a circle, a never ending chase, you keep on steppin' out of reach but you won't win the race. No
more waitin' around, no more hangin' around , no more draggin' me down. Everything's so easy for you but I've struggled to
get this far. I'm alone in the fight. What's wrong, whose right? I take it all to heart. Your true colors start to show. You
call yourself a friend? The teams are drawn, you chose your side, you'll get yours in the end. You play along to the same
old song just as long as you can win, when someone better comes along, you're too cool to let them in. So now I've got you
wonderin' if I've got it in for you. I'd like to tell you different but I can't because it's true.
Ny-Quil
Sleep.
I want to stay in bed all throughout the day, no one bother me. I don't wanna open my eyes. I'll lie here in my room. I have
no need to see. No one wake me I just want to stay in bed. No one move me I just want to lie right here, right in my warm
bed. 'cause I don't want to see tomorrow. Here I am so happy, so just leave me be. I just want to stay. I do not bother you
so don't you touch me. Get the fuck away!
Don't Make Me Ill
Right now we've got a reason to live but
it's got nothing to do with you. We've got a lot of places we're gonna go, a lot of things that we're gonna do. In your world
we may be no one, but what makes you think you're someone? We have got just what we need and we don't need you. No one. I
can tell where our future lies, and you can tell we've got nothing to hide. The way things seem to me right now, everything
will be just fined. We're going to do it all our way. We don't need you to darken our day. We've never given up before and
this stand won't be our first time. No one's gonna tell me, I'm gonna do it my way. No one's gonna tell me how to get it done.
Highschool Football Hero
Wanna be a highschool football hero with an S.A.T. score less then zero. I
wanna try to drink my weight in beer. I wanna be a highschool football hero. Wanna score a touchdown so I can score after
the game. Don't care about my future 'cause it is just another day. I'll rush for forty yards and drink four forties later
on. I'm done with this brunette, someone pass another blonde. Wanna be a highschool football hero with an S.A.T score less
than zero. I wanna try to drink my weight in beer. I wanna be a highshcool football hero. My coach tells me to drink my milk
and wash it down with 'roids. I've gotta get my rest so I can party with the boys. My brain's put in upside-down so I'm just
a little slow. I'll change my name to Bubba so that everyone will know I wanna be a highschool football hero.
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VINYL VERSION ONLY **
Self Pity
I'm always short on cash and my mind is in the trash. I can't find
a way to get my head out of my ass. I'm gettin' skinny as a bone 'cause I'm always stuck at home. I'm living my life all fucked
up and alone. So once again, alone in my room, my only apparent future is my unhappy doom. So I just whine all the fucking
time. I'm hooked bad on caffeine, unless I get it I'm mean. I can't remember last when I was chipper and clean. I'm going
insane, all I do is complain. The only traits I show are depression and disdain. The girl I love is going away, there is no
way that she'll stay. I don't know how I'm gonna live my life this way. Don't want to have to try, I'll just sit around and
cry. Maybe, if I get lucky, I'll just fuckin' die.
Key Lime Pie
Key lime. Infatuation that shouldn't
exist. Key lime Pie. Indulge and I am in your debt. Key lime pie. Inspire me with foolish love. Key lime pie, your green filling
makes me inept. Flaky crust is what I lust. Your fresh lime scent is a must. Take me with coffee, never with tea. You're the
pie that pleases me! People gawk "Is that pie green?" Ask for a bite - "Fuck you, I'm mean." Key lime pie - cheapest hooker
I've ever had. Key lime pie. Last slice gleaming, if you're out I'm mad. Key lime pie. Poke fun and laugh and jest. Key lime
pie. Don't bother me, digest key lime pie.
Days of the Phoenix EP
The Days of the Phoenix
I remember when I was told of story of crushed velvet, candle wax, and
dried up flowers. The figure on the bed all dressed up in roses, calling.beckoning to sleep offering a dream. The words were
as mystical as purring animals. The circle of rage the ghosts on the stage appeared. The time was so tangible I'll never let
it go. Ghost stories handed down, reached secret tunnels below. No one could see me. I fell into yesterday. Our dreams seemed
not far away. I want to stay. I fell into fantasy. The girl on the wall always waited for me and she was always smiling. The
teenage death boys, the teenage death girls..and everyone was dancing. Nothing could touch us then no one could change us
then, and everyone was dancing. Nothing could hurt us then, no one could see us then, and everyone was dancing. Everyone was
dancing.
A Winter's Tale
A chilling silence. A world of violets. My breath materialized again. Immaculate.
Inanimate. A comfort cutting time I see... a string of white lights. Forever walking through December. Forever longing
for a sign of life, a bringer of light. Forever wandering together through a world of violets. Ice everlasting. A
full moon casting a purple veil enshrouding all. I perambulate, somnambulant. A solace piercing time I see... a string
of white lights. If only one for night, if only for one night, if only for one night remember. If only for one night,
if only for one night, if only for one night together.
Wester
I can feel you waiting for me as the
sun retreats to the hills and I, beneath the blanket of a burning sky, wrap myself within. Embraced by dead leaves as the
rain leaves trails of black down my face, I creep through the twilight to that hidden place beyond the lonely. I'll meet you
tonight in the whispers when no one's around. Nothing can stop us now. Tonight in the whispers where we won't be found. I
can feel you dreaming of me and the time when our steps are retraced and I creep through the twilight to that hidden place,
beyond the lonely, I'll meet you. Beneath a dream, lost in a dream tonight. Smile.
Black Sails EP
Porphyria
I
know... It's here we retreat, for where else could we go? To great disbelief there is somewhere we belong. In negative space
supposed flaws go unseen, but our strength is shown. In darkness together we're bringing the light. In darkness together we
are forming. The fire tomorrow is born of the night, in darkness together we ignite. From all we've been shunned but we found
a new home. To great discontent it is greatness that we own. In luminous eyes, reflections of fear absolute... All hate what
we've become. In darkness together we're bringing the light. In darkness together we are forming. The fire tomorrow is born
of the night, in darkness together we ignite. Through our will we bring fear. Left to burn beneath the sun. We are one. When
daylight forms blinding walls where do we go? Days arid are scorching all. When daylight forms blinding, binding walls where
do we go? The darkness calls.
Malleus Maleficarum
Open my eyes as I submerge and I won't deny what I've
been since birth. I'll die drowned by your standards. Breathe in the life of the summmer's death as the orange and red breathe
their first breath, so welcome as they're burning through. We all begin to burn. Autumn's flame dance's in my eyes Set alight
for all we've learned. My ashes falling. My skin is singed but it heals my heart and with glowing pride I'll wear my scars.
I'm honored by your hatred. Leaves fall we arise again, and the end impending, it will begin. So welcome as it's burning through.
Ashes fall and I'm rising up again. Ashes fall. Ashes fall. Ashes fall as we all arise.
The Prayer Position
Now!
Peel the skin back from the flesh. Steal the flesh back from the starving static minds. From nature we must stray, to clarity
we'll climb. Deadly impulse seems so natural, just look beyond it and we'll find a brand new evolution. Here begins a brand
new line. And in the distance there's a gathering, that no longer seems so far away. Pushed to our knees so let us pray, and
all together we'll bring the real rain. Watch all that's wasted wash away, so let it come. Our will be done. Stature retrieved,
regain our form. Break free from instinct that's left us all confined. From nature we must stray to clarity we'll climb. Tradition
ingrained, now impermissible. Now comes a call for all to find a brand new evolution. Here begins a brand new line. I can't
help but fear, look to my species and tremble, to think that God is just... And in the distance there's a gathering that no
longer seems so far away.
Who Knew?
Every single notion burned indelibly. Every motion leaving scars
behind. All sincere emotion received skeptically with no preparation for life eternal.
Every tear that's
fallen brings one thousand floods. Paper cuts are leaving blood behind. All the silent laughter ringing piercingly. I
blink making my eyes mine.
Words in their worthlessness, they should be Weighted down, but do I truly wish their
cessation? Fly.
The Art of Drowning
Initiation
There are no words.
The Lost Souls
If
you can't stand upon the water I will see you on the ocean floor. When you blink do you only find the misery between the lines?
Then take my hand and walk with me. Come to me, your sanctuary, I'll gladly accept the gift that I've been granted. If you
feel fine, then give it just a little time I'm sure you'll contract my disease. Look what you've done to me now, you've made
me perfect. If you can't stand upon the earth then I will meet you on the other side. When you blink do you only find the
misery weighs down your eyes? Then take my hand and sleep with me. Take my hand I'll be everything to you. Take my hand I'll
take everything from you. I will seep under your skin. I will. I will hold onto your heart. I will.
The Nephilim
Swing
through sadness, tears of joy. Curse the sunlight. Arsenic for the girls and boys. Drink the madness, smoke so coy. Smile
injection. Serum of a will destroyed. The seasons change without me. I remain in shadows growing wings. The spirit song still
surrounds me, in refrain, in shadows growing wings. Like an angel with two broken wings, reach the sky again. Like a devil,
meant for better things, I will find my place on high.
Ever and a Day
Lie in comfort of sweet calamity
with nothing left to lose. Like in the darkness, I'm slowly drowned to sleep nothing left to lose. Three tears I've saved
for you. I'd retrace the steps that lead me here but nothing lives behind me. So I lie in this field bathed in the light that
loves me, with nothing left to lose. Three tears I've saved for you. Will you be my beloved? Will you help me to get through?
Will you be my destruction? Will you help me to be through?
Sacrifice Theory
Hear one thousand screams.
Hear one thousand voices. A solitary echo. Feel one thousand pains, but one is receiving a bloody invitation. Do you want
to feel the warmth? To taste the life flow? Feel one thousand lost sinking into soft skin. Ingest rejuvenation. One to consume,
one to renew. Demanded invitation. I offer grace, I offer blood. I offer everything till my heart is crystal clear. Do you
want to feel the warmth? To taste the life? I want to taste the life to taste the life flow.
Of Greetings and Goodbyes
Now
ending discreetly, just like a hidden sin, as I go under please tuck me in. Make me invisible. This hidden explosion calls
for a wandering cast with no direction. Enter all monsters let us twist another fairy tale. Go kill the lights, we'll glow
till morning comes. I'll say goodnight and bow to everyone. Then we go under. The beauties are sleeping as fruit just rots
away. Today go hungry. Let it begin. Make me invincible. There was a weeping I carried down today, a sigh worth keeping. Deep
within divinity let's star another secret show. No need to worry it is just another monster. No need to fear here in the secret
show. No need to worry I am just another monster. In you, I'll see me, in the secret show.
Smile
Overwhelmed
with a deep repulsion for sights seen so commonly, now I have come to be the walking enmity. Assimilate into a culture of
post morality, from what I've seen, I hate humanity. Rot with repulsion. I'll write the world a brand new song. Look upon
your bleak creation, but is it truly me that's to be the human blasphemy? I'll set the world on fire and, in burning light
I'll write my first love song and I will feel warmth. Hide your eyes in heaven, in the lies. Believe. Relieve. I'll end the
world tonight. Overwhelmed with a deep repulsion for sights seen so commonly, now I have come to be a walking enmity, for
humanity, the human blasphemy, I'll end the world tonight.
A Story at Three
Again and again they blend
into one, my father the morning pushes through moonlight love. So what's sleep? Sleep. I'm tired, so tired, but it seems that
there's someone here with me. We are the wakeful, wry, watchful. We're awaiting. Deathless ones. A story at three with the
shrillest of cries. My mind fights with the sparkles in the corner of my eyes. I hear the morning choir sing to me their elegy.
So beautiful. They sing to me their elegy. Requiem.
The Days of the Phoenix
I remember when I was told
of story of crushed velvet, candle wax, and dried up flowers. The figure on the bed all dressed up in roses, calling.beckoning
to sleep offering a dream. The words were as mystical as purring animals. The circle of rage the ghosts on the stage appeared.
The time was so tangible I'll never let it go. Ghost stories handed down, reached secret tunnels below. No one could see me.
I fell into yesterday. Our dreams seemed not far away. I want to stay. I fell into fantasy. The girl on the wall always waited
for me and she was always smiling. The teenage death boys, the teenage death girls..and everyone was dancing. Nothing could
touch us then no one could change us then, and everyone was dancing. Nothing could hurt us then, no one could see us then,
and everyone was dancing. Everyone was dancing.
Catch a Hot One
Let's tap your heart so we can paint
the walls and see if anybody likes the tone or the pain. The hungry eyes waiting for life flash, now they're gonna see it.
Open your veins so we can make a pool and bathe and see if anyone complains of the stain. Let's strip you down so we can see
you old scars. Now you're gonna feel it. Show me how to shine now. Have you ever turned to dust? I saw an insect learn to
fly; its form was scorned. Have you ever seen the kingdom of the flys? I saw it stay in sovereignty. Have you lost the sense
of touch? Have you ever turned to dust? Let's lift you up so we can see how fast you fall. We always thought that you could
fly; now you'll crawl. The lack of loyalty you thought you once felt, now you're gonna feel it. Now show me how to shine.
Wester
I
can feel you waiting for me as the sun retreats to the hills and I, beneath the blanket of a burning sky, wrap myself within.
Embraced by dead leaves as the rain leaves trails of black down my face, I creep through the twilight to that hidden place
beyond the lonely. I'll meet you tonight in the whispers when no one's around. Nothing can stop us now. Tonight in the whispers
where we won't be found. I can feel you dreaming of me and the time when our steps are retraced and I creep through the twilight
to that hidden place, beyond the lonely, I'll meet you. Beneath a dream, lost in a dream tonight. Smile.
6 to 8
Six
figures enter; they've come to destroy the world. They've called together this storm almost every night. I awake in another
place. A familiar voice with a stranger's face speaks more unheard words. What new friends will the day bring? One for one
thousand acquainted. What new home will the night bring? When it all comes down you just throw the bones. On the way I saw
five hours of sleep but your fire makes it all worth while. On the way I wrote words for you to keep. On the way, I saw myself.
Lost myself along the way.
The Despair Factor
Along the path where the stream is talking, I breathe the
mist and continue walking. The wood it whispers in a language of it's own. As a sigh escaped my lips I feel the light caress
of fingertips that steal away the breath and leave me on my own, waiting by the stairs. Waiting, I despair. Do I hear the
hollow sound, footsteps resounding on this frozen ground, or the familiar disappointment of the echoes of my own? Somehow
I ended up here in between, where there is always the comfort of knowing I'll never be seen when I fall. I wait for just one
touch.and I fall. Weightless, Endless, Faithless, I'll adore you. A single touch before I fade. Painless let me pass through.
Morningstar
I saw a star beneath the stairs glowing through the melting walls. Who will be the first to begin their fall? Or will
we become one? Am I the star beneath the stairs? Am I a ghost upon the stage? Am I your anything? I saw a star beneath the
stairs glowing bright before descent and in the morning there is nothing left but what's inside of me. And I don't want to
die tonight; will you believe in me? And I don't want to fall into the light. Will you wish upon? Will you walk upon me? I
don't want to die tonight. Will you.
** CD Version Only **
Battled
These will not be posted.
** Vinyl Version Only **
Dream of Waking
I feel it washing over me, the slow poisonous tide.
Pins and needles dance on me. Sickness undefined. Now I'm afraid to face the sky. Please someone hear my haunted cries. Please
them waken me. With eyes sewn shut I still can see all that is surrounding me. I end up somewhere, somewhere between... between
a dream and motionless reality, will I forever life? I feel binding so smoothly. I see myself below. I feel it gnawing, eating
me. Poisonous and slow. My mind it speeds. My voice has died. God let me make the faintest cry. Opened up and for the taking,
just one touch and I'll be yours. Opened up wide for the breaking. Just one touch and I'll be yours. What's on the other side
of the mirror? To cry, I try, to break the static keeping me here in between.
All Hallow's EP
Fall Children
As the cries
start to penetrate still air, this day we celebrate. The wait now ends. From four corners smoke plumes into reddened sky.
In the face of lantern light, my destiny flies. This day so hallowed, from here to forever its will I will follow. Tonight
will come to life. Deadened branches stirred by whispers in the wind. Fall children fill the streets at dusk, at last, it
all will begin.
Halloween (Misfits Cover)
Bonfires burning bright, Pumpkin faces in the night, I
remember Halloween.
Dead cats hanging from poles, Little dead are out in droves, I remember Halloween.
Brown
leafed vertigo, Where skeletal life is known, I remember Halloween.
This day anything goes, Burning bodies
hanging from poles, I remember Halloween,
Halloween
Candy apples and razor blades, Little dead are soon
in graves, I remember Halloween.
This day anything goes, Burning bodies hanging from poles, I remember
Halloween
The Boy Who Destroyed the World
Once there was a boy who had vibrant glow, but as it goes, someone took
it from him. One day through the rain I heard him meekly moan, he said "Will you wrap your arms around me as I'm falling?"
Remember when we were all so beautiful? But since then we've lost our glow. They said it hurt their eyes but he would never
know that they were filled with regret as their own dissipated. He said, "I now feel more desperately alone, even though they
wrapped their arms around me as I'd fallen." They said it hurt their eyes, but he would never know that they were claiming
regret as their own... as their own dissipated.
Totalimmortal
Hope unkown. Sometimes just waking
is surreal. I walk right through the nameless ones. I know that hope's unknown. Sometimes the water feels so real. As I walk
through it fills my lungs, my god, I'm drowning. This day never seems to end. This pain, never. The rage I will not let go.
I hear them calling. I feel them gnawing out holes through flawless souls. So alone. Sometimes I swear that I can hear the
taunting of the voiceless ones. I fear that I alone fear those ceased to feel they're alone inside of this place. I
am the misplaced. Now every face, it looks familiar... then every face would melt away until.. now everyone, do you know,
I know your deception?
Black Sails In the Sunset
Strength Through Wounding
Through our bleeding. We are one! Through the darkness breaks
the light. Through the light unending pain. Deify the wretched ones till the darkness comes again.
Porphyria Cutanea
Tarda
I know... It's here we retreat, for where else could we go? To great disbelief there is somewhere we belong.
In negative space supposed flaws go unseen, but our strength is shown. In darkness together we're bringing the light. In darkness
together we are forming. The fire tomorrow is born of the night, in darkness together we ignite. From all we've been shunned
but we found a new home. To great discontent it is greatness that we own. In luminous eyes, reflections of fear absolute...
All hate what we've become. In darkness together we're bringing the light. In darkness together we are forming. The fire tomorrow
is born of the night, in darkness together we ignite. Through our will we bring fear. Left to burn beneath the sun. We are
one. When daylight forms blinding walls where do we go? Days arid are scorching all. When daylight forms blinding, binding
walls where do we go? The darkness calls.
Exsanguination
Welcome the whole new pain and take comfort
in what you've become. I waved as I passed myself along the way. I have arrived so unashamed but my reflection no longer seems
the same. It seems much dimmer now... it seems so dim. Just stumble and fall into a world that's over crowded. And you will
find me. Won't recognize me; and I won't recognize myself. I've arrived so unashamed, but all my senses no longer seem the
same. I can sense everything. My sight's so clear. In an instant,, my life just slipped away, I fought for life, the whole
time you were holding me down. You watched me dying. Holding me down, you brought my rebirth.
Malleus Maleficarum
Open
my eyes as I submerge and I won't deny what I've been since birth. I'll die drowned by your standards. Breathe in the life
of the summmer's death as the orange and red breathe their first breath, so welcome as they're burning through. We all begin
to burn. Autumn's flame dance's in my eyes Set alight for all we've learned. My ashes falling. My skin is singed but it heals
my heart and with glowing pride I'll wear my scars. I'm honored by your hatred. Leaves fall we arise again, and the end impending,
it will begin. So welcome as it's burning through. Ashes fall and I'm rising up again. Ashes fall. Ashes fall. Ashes fall
as we all arise.
Narrative Of Soul Against Soul
To the wounded: I have seen the self image they've
forced you to reduce to shattered glass, with the only remaining value lying in it's jagged edges. But the few who warrant
waking for await their recognition. No fear of death but with fear of life, your weakness kills everyone. So live. Angels
for everyone. For no lack of searching I can't seem to find one. Angels in everyone. What of all their promises? Can't seem
to find much more than lies. Angels in anyone. A permanent solution to a temporary problem. Before I'd lay me down to rest,
I'd throw away everything to live.
Clove Smoke Catharsis
Lean against the night and laugh as I try to
scale the walls. Ingnored futility fills the air. You're only there to watch me fall...If only pure sweetness was offered,
why's this bitter taste left in my mouth? If I could catch my breath just to exhale, I'd know that I held it in to long......
From above comes a faint smile, a new vantage such a view. Familiarity know disowned. Just sit and stare as I walk away.
The
Prayer Position
Now! Peel the skin back from the flesh. Steal the flesh back from the starving static minds. From
nature we must stray, to clarity we'll climb. Deadly impulse seems so natural, just look beyond it and we'll find a brand
new evolution. Here begins a brand new line. And in the distance there's a gathering, that no longer seems so far away. Pushed
to our knees so let us pray, and all together we'll bring the real rain. Watch all that's wasted wash away, so let it come.
Our will be done. Stature retrieved, regain our form. Break free from instinct that's left us all confined. From nature we
must stray to clarity we'll climb. Tradition ingrained, now impermissible. Now comes a call for all to find a brand new evolution.
Here begins a brand new line. I can't help but fear, look to my species and tremble, to think that God is just... And in the
distance there's a gathering that no longer seems so far away.
No Poetic Device
I've been dreaming.
I was lucid. I was dreaming blood was seeping from my pores. Who'd believe that it was all my own decision? Cracked faces
and medicated smiles. Set fire to my home before I turned and walked back in. For even needle open my chest and insert ten
pins. I just anticipate what awaits when I awake... break. I die in my daydreams. The gardens have all been overgrown. I pushed
my hand through the thorns to crush the final rose. A deadly secret only I suffer to know. I can't eradicate what awaits when
I awake... break. I die in my day dreams.
The Last Kiss
Hung in your room, swaying, hoping only that
you'll see. All by myself, I'm alone in such poor company. The deeper I think, the deeper I seem to sink, I can't stop the
insects that are feeding, pull the needles from beneath my skin. I broke myself, shattered, tied a bow around every peice.
You'll love the eyes. Have they always shown so vacantly? The more I show the less you'll want to know. I can't stop the insects
that are feeding, pull the needles from beneath my skin. Now I'm on display. I am becoming. Hurt myself today. It's all for
you. Do you like what I'm becoming? Cut myself today. It's all for you. I part the night, flashing, approaching as I watch
you flee. Pushed through your panes. Seems I've landed quite uncomfortably. But as I pass through souls of broken glass I
can't stop the insects that are feeding. Pull the needles from beneath my skin. Please don't ask me what I think, trust me,
you don't want to know. Please don't ask me to open up, trust me, trust me, 'cause I can't.
Weathered Tome
They're
coming 'round again. I've returned and they've been waiting. Their aged offererings received and returned, passed through
wet eyes. I tremble as I feel them rolling in for, my sins, the old ghosts know. So chilling as I feel them mourn within my
soul. As the mourning grows. Unfold before me. Turn back the page again. Twenty four hours spent wishing that the day was
never ending. Shadows of glory shading my heart again. Recall the summer when I left my heart to cool beneath the shadows
I'm coming 'round again. I've returned and no one's waiting. I strain my eyes to see but it's so hard to read the old tags
on the fallen walls.
At A Glance
No haven now as I watch it pour from everywhere. Just like the storm
that has come out of thin air. Gentle caresses, just as paper thin -frail and only- lack the strength to hold. What if could
go to sleep for days, would you count the hours, or would your restlessness consume fading memories of me? Fall into open
arms that offer their protection. Quick to deny that their open to deceit. Long to believe that support will never cease.
Bitter and lonely, those they've left before. The vibrant heart so quickly growing old, the warmest eyes so quickly growing
cold. Just a glance for they don't care to see what becomes of me.
God Called In Sick Today
Let's admire
the pattern forming. Murderous filigree. I'm caught in the twisting of the vine. Go ascend with ivy, climbing. Ignore and
leave for me the headstone crumbling behind. I can't help my laughter as she cries. My soul brings tears to angelic eyes.
Let's amend the classic story, close it so beautifully, I'll let animosity unwind. Steal away the darkened pages, hidden so
shamefully. I'll still feel the violence of the lines. I can't stand my laughter as they cry. My soul brings tears to angelic
eyes. And miles away my mother cries. Omnipotence, nurturing malevolence.
Midnight Sun
What went down
on the side of the road? What I saw at the edge of the see. Only those elements time cannot wear, and they follow. What
seeped out throught the cracks in time, what sucks out the color in me? What awaits beyond infinity? Beyond and to all time
I stand. What blew in with the great gale? What weighed down the falling leaves? What came forth from the remains? What
has always lived and gone unseen? What has caused the night to fall? Who speaks of eternity? Who awakes to night eternally?
DE
PROFUNDIS CLAMAVI (Baudelaire) O my sole love, I pray thee pity me From out this dark gulf where my poor heart lies, A
baren world hemmed in by leaden skies Where horror flies at night, and blasphemy.
For half the year the sickly sun
is seen, The other half thick night lies on the land, A country bleaker than the polar strand; No beasts, no brooks,
nor any shred of green.
There never was a horror which surpassed This icy sun's cold cruelty, and this vast Night
like primeval Chaos; would I were
Like the dumb brutes, who in a secret lair Lie wrapt in stupid slumber for a space... Time
creeps at so burdensome a pace.
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Only **
Lower It
An invitation. Excluding
no one. So walk right in and destroy the fucking place. You've lost your right to be part of my family. The family that welcomed
you. You joined and left in disgrace Your flag was flaming. Before it ever started flying. Your flag was burning Burning down
everyone in true salute. Sense of commitment. A sense of pride. I heard you say that we shared a destiny. Now it's plain to
see you've got no sense at all. The name that once honored. You disgraced and made a mockery I could always see. The smoke
from miles away. I could always see. The weakness in your eyes. Far away I feel the lies. While the sky is burning. You will
always be unwanted.
A Fire Inside EP
3 1/2
Open wounds in the palms
of my hands, festering through infectious time. I feel so faint as my life spills over you. Backstep over glass as I repent.
I fear I cannot prevent myself from spilling your life all over me. I'm so sick, so sick of myself. Mother, say you'll pray
for me. I'm premature in my decay. Shards of glass swimming in my eyes. A small voice in the back of my mind that's whispering
words I never want to hear. I pray that you won't hesitate, as you watch me degenerate, to reach in my wounds and extract
all of my fear. My suffocation, asphyxiation. I've been choking on my own blood.
Over Exposure
I have
seen ten roses bleed, seen new petals fall, I have felt my soul tear. I have felt nothing at all. Watched what was vibrant
fade as shadows fall. I can see it's been done, all that was pure had been eradicated. I can see it's all done. Nothing can
erase the damage done. I have seen ten liars love, seen two lovers lie, seen youth, blinded, smiling. I have seen deciet handed
down from the highest height, below the lowly. I have seen beasts bathed in glory, tread across the angels as they crawl.
Take it all away. Regress to nothing. Can someone please take these images from my mind?
The Hanging Garden
(Cure cover)
Creatures kissing in the rain. Shapeless in the dark again. In the hanging garden please don't speak.
In the hanging garden no one sleeps. Catching haloes on the moon. Gives my hands the shapes of angels. In the heat of the
night the animals scream. In the heat of night walking into a dream... Fall fall fall fall into the walls. Jump jump out of
time. Fall fall fall fall out of the sky. Cover my face as the animals die. Creatures kissing in the rain. Shapeless in the
dark again. In a hanging garden change the past. In a hanging garden wearing furs and masks. Fall fall fall fall into the
walls. Jump jump out of time. Fall fall fall fall out of the sky. Cover my face as the animals die. In the hanging garden.
Demonomania (Misfits cover)
Look upon me I am the beast. Demonomania. My father was a wolf. Demonomania. My mother
was a whore. You check and see. Reality of the wolf. It's in the blood. I wanna be the fucking savior. Humans are weak. What
else you fucking do. Humans are weak. I want your blood. Demonomania. My father was a wolf. Demonomania. My mother was a whore.
Demonomania. My mother was a whore. Demonomania. My father was a wolf.
Shut Your Mouth and Open Your Eyes
Keeping Out Of Direct
Sunlight (An Introduction)
We are the ones
with the radiating eyes. We are the ones who have a fire inside. We are the ones only we can recognize. We've been rejected
- suffered the ignorance, suffered the selfishness, been pushed so far down now comes Our time to surface. Turn from the light,
that made them all go blind. We've been protected. ALL ARISE TO WHAT WE BRING, OUTSTRETCHED HANDS, UNFOLDED WINGS. We've hurt
ourselves, and I feel the sting of broken hearts and burning wings...
Three
Reasons
Where were you? Say you were gone? Well, ask me and I'll swear you were there all along. Another place?
Another state? At any rate, I can't relate. There's no two ways, you're a disgrace. Drown down your fear, suffocate every
spark of clarity. Your weakness: sickens me, saddens me, strengthens me. There's no way to free responsibility. Who's
to blame? Who's in the wrong? The truth from which you hide - it was you all along. You were there, you didn't care, and your
heart and mind were self impaired. Now, all that's left is our despair.
A Single Second
Oh my God!
My God this can't be happening! God tell me, tell me this isn't real! i can't believe all that i have foreseen is finally
happening. i cannot for a single second stand the way i feel. i always knew. i always saw it coming. Enveloped now, encased
by my worst fear. i've never felt the nausea of longing to feel nothing, i never wanted to cease to exist, just disappear.
Fear memories are all that lie ahead. Never have I felt so lost. Memories dull my senses. Fear tragedy is all that lies
ahead. Never have I felt so dead. Once felt so warm, no i'm fucking freezing. i am the once embraced abandoned one. i
raised my eyes up to the light in hopes of finding healing; no relief was mine, i was burnt, by the sun.
pH Low
So quickly draining away. If you could only hear all the things you used to say. Consumed now by what you knew
was poisonous, quenching your thirst for life. Will you die for me? Will you live for me? Kill aspirations away. Embrace a
dream that was a nightmare only yesterday. True friends forgotten and all hopes been traded in, exchanged for what. For what?
All at once, all is lost. All is lost.
Let It Be Broke
I live in truth, complacently. Where's the threat
you see in me? Am I the cause of your Self consciousness? You scream at me 'cause I can't ignore the destructiveness that
you support, 'cause my life's contrary to yours. No soft words from my mouth. A glazed look in your eyes. I live in the world
of reality, you comfort yourself with lies. I will release myself, I will detach myself from you. I will detach myself from
you kind. I've seen your life but I can't see how it is that you can be so content in your own ignorance. Its been so dark
for so long now a new light has come along, illuminating all, so shut your eyes. I won't tell you what you want to hear, I
will show you what's real. I will, will defy.
Third Season
Can you feel the pulse? Can you feel the
heat rising from below? Can you feel the energy gaining strength, oh so slowly? But I'll wait...I'll wait...till the seasons
change. I'll wait...I'll wait... till the fall comes. And I'll give you a mirthless laugh. Can you see the signs? Can you
see the changing of the winds? Can you see the stillness in the air? Calm will remain...oh so shortly. But I'll wait...till
the seasons change. I'll wait...till the fall comes.
Lower Your Head and Take It in The Body
Drowned
in flames is where I can be found, my nose broke from being smashed into the ground. What a waste, this place I call my home.
Escape this place and break out on my own! I'm still reaching. Try to slap me down, but I'll still hold. In the fray is where
I can be found. My head is bruised from always being knocked around. What a fight, this life I call my own! Escape this life,
and break out on my own! I'm still reaching! Try to slap me down, but I'll still hold. I'll hold my own.
Coin Return
I have slipped and I have fallen so far down I can't get out. Overwhelmed by my doubt. Things I said I'd never
do I've done. Those I said I'd never be I've become. I have broken - I'm still breaking - cracked and wrecked, beyond repair.
Smacks me in the face every time I fall. I cannot disregard, with each new fall I hit twice as hard. Would you be there for
me? I would. Would you look up to see? I would. falling forward and looking up.
The New Patrons Saints and Angels
I've
seen the light that emanates from you, and it makes me feel proud, a voice of reason above the muffling crowds. Such will
to live and you've got so much to give, long lost sincerity. Lost in a world that's been scorched to black. Lost in myself
until I finally find. A guide in you, and gratitude is mine, I admire the way you shine. Stare down the day from which others
shield their eyes, with complete clarity, and no trace of apathy. So positive, and your heart you freely give, long lost vivacity.
Lost in a world that's been scorched to black. Lost in myself until I finally find. A guide in you, and gratitude is mine,
I admire the way you shine.
Three Seconds Notice
Submission- My back hurts from bowing down. Attraction
- Was once so strong now can't be found. Affection - One gift I wish you would return. Frustration - as I accede. I do not
deserve your frigidness, such callousness, yet I persist. What's wrong with me? I told you "you can't be replaced", you showed
me I'm disposable. Spit in my face, as I submit, so I quit!
Salt For Your Wounds
There's a tear in
my heart where the blood ran out. There's a tear in my heart where the love ran out. I thought we worked, pushed toward the
same ends, I'll never be so quick to trust again. Disenchanted, disgusted, I regret that I trusted. I put my faith. My faith
in you, you poisoned me through and through. I though we both shared the same injuries. Now I've found it's you who injures
me. My heart is cracked from being left out in the cold. I know you'll pay for what you've taken - tenfold. Disenchanted,
disgusted, I regret that I trusted. I put my faith. My faith in them, they twisted the knife further in.
Today's
Lesson
Here is your lesson for today, ya better listen up real fucking good! My cloud always has a silver lining,
and I love everything that I see. My world is wonderful and no one could ever hurt me. You hate yourself, yes you do, and
that's why right now I hate you. You hate yourself, yes you do, and that's why right now I can't stand you. Have you learned
your lifes lesson yet? No? Well let me tell you something. I am your teacher you have a lot to learn from me you must love
yourself. You are my teacher you teach me about my life. Theres a lot I can learn from you. And that's why right now I love
you... So fuck you!
The Devil Loves You
Do you understand what I'm trying to say? Have you ever felt?
Have you ever felt this way? Tainted with rage you can't drain away or it will cost you your life. I couldn't care more. Do
you ever absorb what shouldn't be touched? Have you ever cared? Ever cared this much? Do you think it is I who is out of touch,
or are you too scared to think at all? I couldn't€ care more. As your friends fall does it tear your heart? Do tears
fill your eyes as your world falls apart? Do you notice at all, or are you sailing sublime? Am I completely alone?
Triple
Zero
It burns! It burns! It burns my eyes and throat, but I need no antidote. Gnawing and tearing at my insides
- seething, keeping me alive - hatred poisons me through and through - a sustenance - keeping me true. It's not too late.
It's never gonna be too late. Embrace your hate. The pain! The pain it crushes me. I gain animosity. Acid sweat and bloody
tears, through it all I preserve. Some sedate through indifference but I withheld zero tolerance.
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Only *
Last Caress
I've got something to say, I killed your baby today and it doesn't matter much
to me as long as its dead. I've got something to say, I raped your mother today and it doesn't matter much to me as long as
she's spread. Sweet lovely death, I've been waiting for your breath. Let me take one last caress. I've got something to say,
I killed your baby today and it doesn't matter much to me as long as it's dead. Sweet lovely death, I've been waiting for
your breath. Let me take one last caress.
Very Proud of Ya
He Who Laughs Last...
No trust can be given freely, its' a valuable commodity, but obviously
this is something you've never learned. Faith is something that you put in friends, and had I excess morals to lend, I'd let
you borrow them, but my trust you haven't earned. We've got a problem? First of all there is no "we", I'm detached from you
completely. I've got a problem. You tell lies to my friends and think it won't get back to me. No bond can ever seem to make
a stable fit in our relationship, but one thing that never comes between us is honesty. When you have something to say, you
always seem to find a way to avoid the truth or instead, avoid me. Straight up is how you'll see me stand, but it is never
in your plans to be straight forward, so instead, you use deceit. Now I would like to take apart what you've been breaking
from the start. I'll remain intact, I won't be broken in defeat. No trust!
File 13
I sleep until there
is no light. I'm wide awake all through the night. Diner may suck but I'll take a bite, I do whatever I can. My muscles stiffen
through the day. Discomfort never goes away. I feel like a garbage can. Throw me away, I've got no use. Throw me away, I'm
nothing to lose. Throw me away, I feel like shit. I am useless. I know I know nothing at all. I'd take stand, but I know I'd
fall. I'd run head-down into a wall and watch my blood run faster. Girls laugh and pass me on the street. I spook out everyone
I meet. I've got pink toenails on my feet, I'm such a fucking master. I never seem to feel well. I always seem to look like
hell. It seems like everyone can tell my mind is going numb. My mom thinks I wear women's clothes. I get dogged on at all
the shows. It seems that everybody know I look like a fucking bum
Wake Up Call
If I had my way I'd
wish them all away, but I can't find the magic inside of me. I'll give my best, 'cause I can give no more, but your problems
aren't solved so easily. I'm not someone that you should run to. I've been, often, as broken as you, more often than you'd
like me to. If I could heal all the pain that you feel, I'd gladly cure all that ails you inside. Unfortunately, I have no
degree and I can not anesthetize. I wish that I could help you. I can't even help myself. It seems you need a saving grace
and a savior's something I'm not.
Cult Status
I'll turn you on and switch you right off. I'll make sure
you like what you see. Forget all that you once believed. Now you will believe in me. Do you believe you make the choice,
decide what you hold most dear? In all opinions that you voice, it's my voice that they all hear. I'll take you ideas and
your values, I'll make you turn them all around. I'll break your individuality, I'll take you down. I'll seal shut your open
eyes. I'll give you a taste on the bland. Intoxicate you, take me in. You'll never feel the touch of my hand. I'll turn you
on and switch you right off. I'll soothe your troubled mind. You'll never have to think again, it's just a matter of lost
time.
Perfect Fit
What was it I was thinking, or was I even thinking at all? When I think of what I
thought back then, then I'm ashamed; and I'm appalled that I gave up all I was so easily. Living your life is not for me.
I won't be sedated, I won't be sedated! Give me a little taste and I know I won't want more. I won't be sedated, stability
is overrated. Give me the disorder I adore. I can't be a part, be a part, I can't be a part. I can't be a part, be a part
of your modern world. I've gotta be apart, be apart, I've gotta be apart. I've gotta be apart. I can't grasp the values that
you hold. What was it you were thinking, or were you even thinking at all? When I think of what you thought of me, I take
offense; and I'm appalled that you could discount all I love so easily. Living our life is not for me.
Advances
In Modern Technology
Every night I walk the streets, awake while everyone else sleeps. I'm giving unease to anyone
I meet. My generosity can never runout, because I give a gift from what's within myself. No hope at all. Take nothing from
nothing and you'll have nothing left. I can't recall. I can't recall a moment in my life when life was at it's best. Everyone
avoids my stare and no one cares to ever dare to look into my eyes of what they most fear. And they're taught to fear, to
fear no evil. And they know no fear, they've learned to love themselves. Forever unlucky, 'cause I'll own tomorrow. Forever
unwanted, outcast today. I'm not misled, I've got no one to follow. Everywhere to go, no place to stay.
Theory
Of Revolution
Don't want to think about it, but I see it every day. Corrupted innocence just doesn't seem to fade
away. Spoiled so young, you know it's bound to last, but when you're living in the city, you've gotta grow up fast. And it
makes me sick, God, it makes me sick. Don't want to think about it, but I see it every day. If you want to buy affluence,
your soul you'll have to pay. Wasting away the prime of your life, but it's been done that way for years, so you know it must
be all right. Don't wanna think about it, but I see it every day. With every sip and every shot, mind and bodies fade away.
Friends are all gone, and memories don't last, but when you've fallen off the wagon, you seem to fall so damn fast.
This
Secret Ninja
Just like cellophane, you try to cling so tight to me, but your attempt's in vain. You've less sincerity
than the plastic. Paper in rain. The print appears so bright to me. The words remain. I hold it to the light, I see right
through. So eager to say, "hello", but you don't know me. You just know what you see. Pay the price to see the show but you
don't own me. Before you knew would you have felt the same? Just when I'm inspired, you drain the drive right outta me, and
even when I'm tired you push me to perform for you amusement. Just like raging fire, you burn what's left inside of me and
to fulfill your desire, I'd give you light till I burned out. Just when you start to smile, I look into your eyes and see
your veiled denial to express any real emotion. Just wait around a while, you'll lose what you once had for me. I'll be out
of style, I'll be discarded with the warmth you once feigned.
Soap Box Derby
I'm not angry, I'm just
amused at your quest for attention through your self abuse. The only response that you get for your pleasis sorely less than
sympathy. What reason is there to be alive? When the word is against you how can you survive? All your friends are apathetic
at best, and your entire life is a total mess. Give it a fuckin' rest. You can't feel me, feel, I'm scarred so deep. No one
needs me. Could you please leave me alone? I'm sorry to hear that your world's sinking fast and you've lost your stable ground
and I'm sorry to add to your disappointment, but I won't be brought down. I'm not angry, I'm just amused at all the dramatics
you love to use, but one thing I have noticed that is strange to me is that you're not content until you're brought down,
and you're always so alone because you can't be found. You're soul is black and you're filled with hate. How much more can
you possible take? Give me a fuckin' break.
Aspirin Free
There's no hope of helping us, we've only just
begun. We're youth eternal, nothing more to become. A thousand lights are burning from both ends. We're proud of reputations
we all own. Together forever. Rejected but never alone. Together forever. I'd purify the world with one primal scream, but
no one would listen. Keep dark secrets to myself, because no one else will talk to me. It's hard for me to comprehend, they
couldn't understand all the thoughts going through our heads. With a smile they tore us up, now look what we've become. Finally
we are numb. No need to. No need to feel. I've got a nothingness and that's all that's real. No need to cut the numbness inside.
No need to. No need to hear. What you've got to say means nothing at all. I've got no distance left to fall.
Fishbowl
I'm
here today, just like every yesterday. Heavy heat, and sheets stick to my skin. Can't get away from nothingness. I try to
get up, but I have to give in to the force that is keeping me down. I overcome gravity, I look outside. A cat cries out, trapped
upon a window sill, but is crying's drowned out by my screaming inside. What will it take? I wonder what it's like exposed
outside, would I be safe? When will it break. Try to look out, I see reflection I just want to break. Sirens moan. They're
forever crying...someone's probably dying. The sound sticks inside my head. Talk to myself, I'm company, but who is to say
if nothing if said? Two windows stare back at me. Three stories high nothing is new. I may sit, but someday I'll stand. I'll
muster up the will and fire myself through.
Charles Atlas
You've seen it all a thousand times, you've
heard it all before. You've danced the steps, you wrote the rhymes. So passé, too many times, but you're hollow at the core.
Two generations past you by. You think there's nothing left. But look around and you will see what our world has grown to
be. We are the now, not the past. Can't you even try to see the strength with which we've built ourselves to be. I know that
you will never be able to destroy what it's meant to me. You've never seen the likes of us. We are your novelty. A brand new
trend with mass appeal, don't like the truth, don't like what's real. You're jumping into something you'll never understand.
You think that it's a passing phase. It's our entire life. You revel in rebellious ways, rebellion that the media made. When
you change your channel, we'll smash your T.V.
Crop Tub
You say you want to be friends, start over,
try again? Well, things will never be the way they were back then. Things were never how you wanted, I couldn't think of you
that way. Now, if you take one step closer I will take two steps away. Maybe you need affection, I'd like to help you but
I can't stand when you're around: fuck you very much. Maybe you need to talk, but you betrayed my trust. Friends was not good
enough? Fuck You Very Much. You can always claim you're straightedge, go ahead and dye your hair. You won't get more attention
from me, 'cause I will never fucking care. I try to remain secret, shooting away and hiding out, but you always track me down.
Open your eyes and figure it out. I'm not trying again. I'm sick of seeing you. Don't wanna be your friend. I wish you'd go
away.
Consult My Lover
You've got something to say, or so you say to me, then you receive a blank stare.
You've got something to say of importance and gosh, that's really good to hear. I'm proud of you, so proud of you, I'm proud
of you, I'm very proud of you. You've got something S.P. - some to show to me. Well, I have seen it before. I can't compete,
I can't impress you. I guess I'll show you the door.
Take The Test
When it comes the time that you have
recognized your line and you realize the path that you will travel through your life, be sure that what you want is exactly
what you're trying to get, or you'll be speeding toward a cliff without realizing that... Before you know, the haze makes
you slow ignore your future, forget your past - before you know, cars start to crash. There are so many choices, the opportunities
abound. Just to be sure to keep things straight and be sure to stand your ground. Let nothing shade your vision, even fight
to keep it clear. Let no one change what's right for you, for when you start to veer cars start to crash.
Two Of
A Kind
Hanging out and lingering around, 'cause you know where I'll be found and I don't know how you do it. This
obsession I must admit has shaken me up a bit. My solidarity now only comes pairs. I'd like to see you before you see me.
I'd like to see you. I'd like to see you leave. Showered be torrential praise, why it is I can't explain. Attempts to leave
yield no avail. For me I don't know what's in store. All I want is nothing more. I don't deserve what I get, I've nothing
to return.
Shatty Fatmas
Don't care to hear what you heard. I won't believe a single word. Don't care
to hear what you say. I won't believe it anyway. You relay fiction, facts you avoid. You're just like a fucking tabloid, you
can never seem to get your information straight. Tell me something I don't know. Your information's fucking faux. Don't you
have somewhere to go? Your mouth is quick, your mind is slow. Don't want to know what you know. I just want you to fucking
go. Don't want to know what you believe. I just wish that you would leave. You try to cajz everyday, I wish that you would
get away. You can never seem to get your information straight. When you try to hang around, I'd really like to push you down.
When you try to understand, I don't really think that you can.
Yurf Rendenmein
You keep on sayin' that
you want to know me but you never show me your true self. How can you ever expect someone else to know you when all you're
going to do is just pretend that you're someone else? You keep on sayin' that you want to show me that you're really different,
but your just the same. If you're really mindless then there is no way that I can win, maybe you're just one of them, or maybe
it's just a game. You lie to yourself and remain alone. I'm not exactly sure of your motivation. I'm not exactly sure what
you're tryin' to do. All I'm really sure is that you're not too impressive and you're wearin' a mask that I can't see through.
Maybe you're not looking for acceptance, maybe you're striving for something more. If it's status that you lust then why try
to be one of us? You're someone we'll never trust 'cause we know the score.
Cruise Control
I will never
want to date you while I can learn to hate you. If you somehow learn to love me, well, that's just my luck. I would never
care if you only wanted my friendship, but somehow you're disappointed that I'm not a slut. I don't want to fuck you, so fuck
you. I my mind there is no doubt that you've been in and out of many different backseats, many times before. I can always
see your defeat when I won't leave the front seat. And it seems your disappointed that I'm not a whore.
Modern
Epic
Yeah I can see it coming. I've seen it all before. I've seen it once or twice and now I hear it call to board.
This train is moving fast but how long is it gonna last. I guess that we'll find out as well go in through the out door. Don't
ever let go. Is this the start? Is this the end? New faces ask, "what's happening?" I bite my tongue and hold my breath and
tell them, "the same old thing." I don't know what's going, on but I don't wanna do it wrong. Don't wanna contradict myself
with all the words I sing.
** VINYL VERSION ONLY **
Who Said You Could Touch Me?
Who
said you could touch me? You don't know I am so, you can not get close to me and I don't know who you are, so just leave me
alone. I know you can't believe the anxiety you're causing me adn I know you can't believe your fake compassion I don't need.
Get away from me, You're standing too close. Keep your hands off of me. Keep away from me, Just leave me alone, who said you
could touch me anyway? Don't try to rub my shoulders and don't try to hold my hand. Don't try to give me a fucking hug. You
crawl.
Rolling Balls
Bowling is my life and it has always been my dream to be a member of the local bowling
team, but I'm not very good. The guys won't accept me, I guess I try the girls team and lose a part of my anatomy then balls
will roll. I think I want to be... Balls will roll, I think it's time, it's timefor me to be a girl. It's a very big decision,
it's going to change my life. I'll have to make all new friends, I 'm gonna lose my wife. But that's okay with me. There's
something in my soul. It doesn't matter who's the better man, it the man who gets to bowl. I 've made my decision , I'm gonna
make the change. There will be rolling balls, I'm gonna play my game. It's gonna be so great. It's gonna be the best, besides,
I've always told myself I look good in a dress. I'm gonna cut'em off, I'm gonna cut'em off, I'm gonna cut'em off. I'll never
have to cough. Now I've made my change and I've fulfilled my dream. I'm now a member of the women's bowling team. I hope I
throw a strike, 'cause I'll never score again. My first game is tomorrow, I will go to play and then....
Love Is
A Many Splendored Thing
You think you've got the looks, you think you've got the fashion. You thought you'd have
me wanting more, but don't like my reaction. You think you're really something. You're nothing to me now. You thought you'd
keep me coming without ever thinking how. I hate you. You think you're really special. You think I think you're best. You
think you're really something? You're no better than the rest. You've got everything you wanted. Don't let yourself be fooled.
You thought that you could play the game, but I just changed the rules.
Answer That and Stay Fashionable
Two Of A Kind
Hangin' out and
lingerin' around, 'cause you know where I'll be found and I don't know how you do it. This obsession I must admit has shaken
me up a bit. My solidarity now only comes in pairs. I'd like to see you before you see me. I'd like to see you. I'd like to
see you leave. Showered by torrential praise, why it is I can't explain. Attempts to leave yield no avail. For me I don't
know what's in store. All I want is nothing more. I don't deserve what I get, I have nothing to return.
Half Empty
Bottle
The ends don't always justify the means, but I know what it takes to get what I need. I've got the cure
when passive protest just wont do. Just flick my Bic as I hold it to the fuse. Smash it up. Break it down. Bring it down,
down to the ground. Tear it up. Burn it down. Burn it down, down to the ground. How long have we waited for the day when they
tighten their grips and we slip away? The sound of breaking glass drives me back up. It makes me whole when I've been down
on my luck.
Yurf Rendenmein
You keep on sayin' that you want to know me but you never show me your true
self. How can you ever expect someone else to know you when all you're going to do is just pretend that you're someone else?
You keep on sayin' that you want to show me that you're really different, but your just the same. If you're really mindless
then there is no way that I can win, maybe you're just one of them, or maybe it's just a game. You lie to yourself and remain
alone. I'm not exactly sure of your motivation. I'm not exactly sure what you're tryin' to do. All I'm really sure is that
you're not too impressive and you're wearin' a mask that I can't see through. Maybe you're not looking for acceptance, maybe
you're striving for something more. If it's status that you lust then why try to be one of us? You're someone we'll never
trust 'cause we know the score.
I Wanna Mohawk (But Mom Won't Let Me Get One)
I may be ten years old
but I still know what's up. I wear my Cramps shirt almost every single day. I want to sag my pants. I want to pogo dance,
but mom won't let me so I might just run away. I wanna ride my skate. I wanna stay out late. I want a mohawk but mom won't
let me get one. I wanna go to shows. Don't wanna pierce my nose. I want a mohawk but mom won't let me get one. I may be in
fourth grade, but I know what's going on. I listen to the Misfits almost every single day. Don't want to take a nap. I want
a TV tat, but mom won't let me so I might just disobey.
Brownie Bottom Sundae
Into the dark is where
you're draggin' me and into your dark is where I never want to be. I know I'm not alone and I really want to leave. Into the
dark is where you want to watch me bleed. I'm feelin' kinda trapped, I gotta go. I'm feelin' kinda trapped don't you know.
I'm feelin' kinda trapped I gotta go. I gotta go. I'm being dragged down, for how long, I don't know. I'm being dragged down
and I rise up way too slow. I know I don't belong here and I think I ought to go. I hope that I can leave here, leave here
with my soul.
The Checkered Demon
Too much to find, so much so little time. So many images persist to
shade my mind. Will I ever come around or will I just hit the ground? Will I still be standing when it all comes down? Why
can't I seem to sort it out? Why am I always filled with doubt? So many people everywhere, so self absorbed without a care.
Of their viral lives, I'd like to bleed them all. When all is drained, who shall hold? When mindless bodies screw tortured
souls, will somebody be there to catch me when I fall? Why can't I seem to sort it out. Why am I always filled with doubt.
How could I always be so blind? Why can't I figure it out. I could always hope for change, could always hope to rearrange.
But why not just abandon hope and tear it all apart now?
Cereal Wars
Get up early in the morning, going
to the store. Post, Kellogs, General Mills? It's the cereal war. Fuckin' store never has the monsters and they never get more.
Post, Kellogs, General Mills? It's the cereal war. I hope sexual chocolate is in stock, it's got a condom in the box. I'll
try some cocoa puffs today. What the fuck is Sonny anyway? Some say Dino's are the best, they've got more marshmallows than
the rest. There's not a lot of cocoa in cocoa crispies, and always stay away from wheaties. Now it's dinner time and I'm going
back to the store. I had some Erkles, 'liked 'em a lot. It's the cereal war. I wish I were Calvin or Hobbes and then I could
try sugar bombs. The soggies will never get Cap'n Crunch, I guess I'll have Crunch Berries for lunch. Breakfast cereals need
to be sweet, that's the only kind I'll eat. Give me sugar not nuts and twigs! Do I look like a fuckin' squirrel to you?
The
Mother In Me
Caught in a world that's plagued by something they called love. A paradigm of illness is the beast
I have become. The sights that I have seen could nearly bring me to my knees. I've seen exactly what it is I never want to
be, but I keep it deep inside myself. It's within me. Keep it deep within yourself and sink with me. Last night I had the
misfortune to see it all first hand. "Evacuate the premises" was the innate first command. What drives the need for all of
this? And will I ever understand? Has someone failed to tell me of this master plan? But I keep it deep inside myself. It's
within me. Keep it deep within yourself and sink with me.
Rizzo In The Box
I'm always around you to
show that I care but I don't know what for. It seems to me that you couldn't care less so I'm not going to do it anymore.
I see no reason why I've placed such a value on you, but my thoughts have changed now, I've opened my eyes and now I'm through.
Lookin' back at my short life, the few pleasures that I've found, all your misconceptions pummel me into the ground. Now,
I look at your small life and it doesn't mean a bit. I pick myself up off the ground 'cause I don't give a shit. They say
all good things come to an end, I wish this didn't apply. You were once someone I called my friend but that's all now changed
and I don't know why. Things are very different now. You've got nothing to say. It' s sad when someone you know very well
decides to fuckin' die and go away.
Kung-Fu Devil
It's said and done, there is no turning back. I've
made my choice, now I've gotta face the facts. Within myself, the hunger won't be subdued, because I can't have my cake and
eat it to. I'm worn down from fighting with myself. I'll save my life and lose my mental health. I'm wiggin' out, everything
is turnin' round. A bitter taste - no comfort can be found. An emptiness wells inside of me, there's no filling the void that
will always be. A self control is all I have to hold. It's been too long. Maybe I have been to bold? When you're bound by
your own conviction a discipline can be your addiction. I'm warn down from fighting with myself. I'll save my life and lose
my mental health. I've gone this far so I'll keep tryin'. Continue to fight, hope that I don't end up dying.
Your
Name Here
It's the same old situation, it seems it's coming 'round again. I wont play the fool, I'm not screwin'
around. I only play to win. I only want what I deserve so who are you tryin' to kid? You can call it like you see it but I
call it like it is. I'm sick of shruggin' off your petty little ways. The names are always changing, in the end it's just
a game. We're runnin' in a circle, a never ending chase, you keep on steppin' out of reach but you won't win the race. No
more waitin' around, no more hangin' around , no more draggin' me down. Everything's so easy for you but I've struggled to
get this far. I'm alone in the fight. What's wrong, whose right? I take it all to heart. Your true colors start to show. You
call yourself a friend? The teams are drawn, you chose your side, you'll get yours in the end. You play along to the same
old song just as long as you can win, when someone better comes along, you're too cool to let them in. So now I've got you
wonderin' if I've got it in for you. I'd like to tell you different but I can't because it's true.
Ny-Quil
Sleep.
I want to stay in bed all throughout the day, no one bother me. I don't wanna open my eyes. I'll lie here in my room. I have
no need to see. No one wake me I just want to stay in bed. No one move me I just want to lie right here, right in my warm
bed. 'cause I don't want to see tomorrow. Here I am so happy, so just leave me be. I just want to stay. I do not bother you
so don't you touch me. Get the fuck away!
Don't Make Me Ill
Right now we've got a reason to live but
it's got nothing to do with you. We've got a lot of places we're gonna go, a lot of things that we're gonna do. In your world
we may be no one, but what makes you think you're someone? We have got just what we need and we don't need you. No one. I
can tell where our future lies, and you can tell we've got nothing to hide. The way things seem to me right now, everything
will be just fined. We're going to do it all our way. We don't need you to darken our day. We've never given up before and
this stand won't be our first time. No one's gonna tell me, I'm gonna do it my way. No one's gonna tell me how to get it done.
Highschool Football Hero
Wanna be a highschool football hero with an S.A.T. score less then zero. I
wanna try to drink my weight in beer. I wanna be a highschool football hero. Wanna score a touchdown so I can score after
the game. Don't care about my future 'cause it is just another day. I'll rush for forty yards and drink four forties later
on. I'm done with this brunette, someone pass another blonde. Wanna be a highschool football hero with an S.A.T score less
than zero. I wanna try to drink my weight in beer. I wanna be a highshcool football hero. My coach tells me to drink my milk
and wash it down with 'roids. I've gotta get my rest so I can party with the boys. My brain's put in upside-down so I'm just
a little slow. I'll change my name to Bubba so that everyone will know I wanna be a highschool football hero.
**
VINYL VERSION ONLY **
Self Pity
I'm always short on cash and my mind is in the trash. I can't find
a way to get my head out of my ass. I'm gettin' skinny as a bone 'cause I'm always stuck at home. I'm living my life all fucked
up and alone. So once again, alone in my room, my only apparent future is my unhappy doom. So I just whine all the fucking
time. I'm hooked bad on caffeine, unless I get it I'm mean. I can't remember last when I was chipper and clean. I'm going
insane, all I do is complain. The only traits I show are depression and disdain. The girl I love is going away, there is no
way that she'll stay. I don't know how I'm gonna live my life this way. Don't want to have to try, I'll just sit around and
cry. Maybe, if I get lucky, I'll just fuckin' die.
Key Lime Pie
Key lime. Infatuation that shouldn't
exist. Key lime Pie. Indulge and I am in your debt. Key lime pie. Inspire me with foolish love. Key lime pie, your green filling
makes me inept. Flaky crust is what I lust. Your fresh lime scent is a must. Take me with coffee, never with tea. You're the
pie that pleases me! People gawk "Is that pie green?" Ask for a bite - "Fuck you, I'm mean." Key lime pie - cheapest hooker
I've ever had. Key lime pie. Last slice gleaming, if you're out I'm mad. Key lime pie. Poke fun and laugh and jest. Key lime
pie. Don't bother me, digest key lime pie.
Days of the Phoenix EP
The Days of the Phoenix
I remember when I was told of story of crushed velvet, candle wax, and
dried up flowers. The figure on the bed all dressed up in roses, calling.beckoning to sleep offering a dream. The words were
as mystical as purring animals. The circle of rage the ghosts on the stage appeared. The time was so tangible I'll never let
it go. Ghost stories handed down, reached secret tunnels below. No one could see me. I fell into yesterday. Our dreams seemed
not far away. I want to stay. I fell into fantasy. The girl on the wall always waited for me and she was always smiling. The
teenage death boys, the teenage death girls..and everyone was dancing. Nothing could touch us then no one could change us
then, and everyone was dancing. Nothing could hurt us then, no one could see us then, and everyone was dancing. Everyone was
dancing.
A Winter's Tale
A chilling silence. A world of violets. My breath materialized again. Immaculate.
Inanimate. A comfort cutting time I see... a string of white lights. Forever walking through December. Forever longing
for a sign of life, a bringer of light. Forever wandering together through a world of violets. Ice everlasting. A
full moon casting a purple veil enshrouding all. I perambulate, somnambulant. A solace piercing time I see... a string
of white lights. If only one for night, if only for one night, if only for one night remember. If only for one night,
if only for one night, if only for one night together.
Wester
I can feel you waiting for me as the
sun retreats to the hills and I, beneath the blanket of a burning sky, wrap myself within. Embraced by dead leaves as the
rain leaves trails of black down my face, I creep through the twilight to that hidden place beyond the lonely. I'll meet you
tonight in the whispers when no one's around. Nothing can stop us now. Tonight in the whispers where we won't be found. I
can feel you dreaming of me and the time when our steps are retraced and I creep through the twilight to that hidden place,
beyond the lonely, I'll meet you. Beneath a dream, lost in a dream tonight. Smile.
Black Sails EP
Porphyria
I
know... It's here we retreat, for where else could we go? To great disbelief there is somewhere we belong. In negative space
supposed flaws go unseen, but our strength is shown. In darkness together we're bringing the light. In darkness together we
are forming. The fire tomorrow is born of the night, in darkness together we ignite. From all we've been shunned but we found
a new home. To great discontent it is greatness that we own. In luminous eyes, reflections of fear absolute... All hate what
we've become. In darkness together we're bringing the light. In darkness together we are forming. The fire tomorrow is born
of the night, in darkness together we ignite. Through our will we bring fear. Left to burn beneath the sun. We are one. When
daylight forms blinding walls where do we go? Days arid are scorching all. When daylight forms blinding, binding walls where
do we go? The darkness calls.
Malleus Maleficarum
Open my eyes as I submerge and I won't deny what I've
been since birth. I'll die drowned by your standards. Breathe in the life of the summmer's death as the orange and red breathe
their first breath, so welcome as they're burning through. We all begin to burn. Autumn's flame dance's in my eyes Set alight
for all we've learned. My ashes falling. My skin is singed but it heals my heart and with glowing pride I'll wear my scars.
I'm honored by your hatred. Leaves fall we arise again, and the end impending, it will begin. So welcome as it's burning through.
Ashes fall and I'm rising up again. Ashes fall. Ashes fall. Ashes fall as we all arise.
The Prayer Position
Now!
Peel the skin back from the flesh. Steal the flesh back from the starving static minds. From nature we must stray, to clarity
we'll climb. Deadly impulse seems so natural, just look beyond it and we'll find a brand new evolution. Here begins a brand
new line. And in the distance there's a gathering, that no longer seems so far away. Pushed to our knees so let us pray, and
all together we'll bring the real rain. Watch all that's wasted wash away, so let it come. Our will be done. Stature retrieved,
regain our form. Break free from instinct that's left us all confined. From nature we must stray to clarity we'll climb. Tradition
ingrained, now impermissible. Now comes a call for all to find a brand new evolution. Here begins a brand new line. I can't
help but fear, look to my species and tremble, to think that God is just... And in the distance there's a gathering that no
longer seems so far away.
Who Knew?
Every single notion burned indelibly. Every motion leaving scars
behind. All sincere emotion received skeptically with no preparation for life eternal.
Every tear that's
fallen brings one thousand floods. Paper cuts are leaving blood behind. All the silent laughter ringing piercingly. I
blink making my eyes mine.
Words in their worthlessness, they should be Weighted down, but do I truly wish their
cessation? Fly.
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